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observations that I made today...random thoughts.

2006-05-24T03:06:00.000+08:00

I have a couple of random thoughts after being up all night yesterday. Maybe creative "ideas" start evolving when I start working at the weirdest hours.

For the past one week, I got really irritated who doesn't have the initiative to move their bloody asses off to the LEFT side of the escalator. Starting from yesterday, I'm not afraid to offend people by making that irritated sound and shouting "EXCUSE ME!" so loud everyone looked at him/her in disgust. Damn irritating can. And yesterday in the train, I almost died from someone's poisonous B.O! omg...Try picturing this, I walked into the train...and a whiff of the B.O just slapped me in my face! goddamnit!!!!!

Wadever....speaking of disgusting singaporeans and I can give u the whole load of examples.

I am thinking of travelling again. Let's try listing down for planning: -
Note: the following trips might not take place, this is just for proposal purposes
1) Taiwan
2) Bangkok/HK (same priority)
3) Vietnam (good for sight seeing)
4) Australia (near future, maybe next year)
5) New Zealand (hopefully soon)
6) San Francisco (hopefully next year)

And on top of that....I want to go on to get my DSLR.

I dreamt of something really queer last night, I dreamt that I became a psychologist (not sure specialising in animals or humans) but I just made it big. Strange dream esp when I see satellite dishes behind me...(as if to tell me that in the past, i was dealing with satellites..time to move on to the real dream). But i continue sleeping like a block of log anyway.

I just read a horoscope for those born on the 1st Nov, seems to be extremely accurate but in chinese... -_-;;

Here's what it says: - Very expressive, has a high intuitive (sixth sense) level, strong character, loves challenges and excitement. In-born sixth sense. Very creative and expressive.
Strong points: full of energy, very artistic, very good in communication and possess leadership qualities.
Weak points: impulsive, destructive, zi bei, the rest i dun understand..

Well, it seems like it's all true to me. *shrugs*

It's now like 1930 +GMT and 0430 (singapore time). *yawnz*

Let me get back to work now...after all those random thoughts.

sat & sun

2006-05-22T02:59:00.000+08:00

Saturday...hmm. I was pulling a long face to Wayne because he complained that my phone is abit spoilt. I can hear him but he can't hear me. Then I thought of getting the mickey mouse series phone. I don't know how much it costs...neither does Wayne. *sighz* so he starts to grumble, I start to sob cos I was irritated by him.

So we made a pact...affordable we get. Too expensive, we see only. So we headed down to Bugis Singtel. $328....So I got the ruby-version (limited edition). Oh well...Somehow I got a feeling that I might not use this phone for long. Either I sell or I just am going to sell lah..Come on! it's limited edition. I would rather get a phone with bluetooth and expandable memory anytime like K800? or N80. Not mickey mouse phone...I would love to use it for awhile to explore it. I hope Wayne don't get too angry with me cos Im only evaluating what is good is long term.

Anyway, on Sat night...we went over to JustWine for a bottle of white. Ended up with loads and loads of people..let me try naming them - Yang Chen, Yang Chen's gf, Arthur, Joshua, Aaron Matthew, Nick, Kexin, Giles, Mickey etc etc...Altogether 5-6bottles of wine. One white, 5 red. We drank the night away....

But next morning..............headache. Forgot to take aspirin. Damn! Had a very good Sunday with Wayne. We snoozed the Sunday afternoon away and woke up in the evening for Ya Kun in Toa Payoh. Bought 2 polo tee from Giordano - Orange and Black. Tmrw (22nd May) - night shift at work. Phew.....Time to sleep, sleep more.

world cup tsunami

2006-05-19T17:08:00.000+08:00

Hmm, my colleagues are starting the bets soon for the World Cup thingy. Goodness....

As for me.....TEAM NIPPON! hai~

Right now, I just want to go back home and take a nap or probably just play pool again and again. =)

I haven't been drinking much lately...feeling very restless and all. I saw Japan and Brazil team on ASTV news and Reuters news....OMG! I saw Inamoto and Shinji! *screamz* I seriously hope they make it to semi-finals or finals again. Oh please....Nippon Nippon.

I miss pool

2006-05-18T15:17:00.000+08:00

Work is lousy today, didn't really learn much and also im in a huge fix as to what I have been learning so far. Been feeling a little down and scared cos it's already thursday =(

My work colleagues are really nice that I also dunno what to say...more girls here. lol Alot of guys and a couple of girls are into photography. I spent the whole day surfing net and chatting AND dozing off.

After that, I met up with Wayne for POOOOOOOOL! ho ho ho Went down to parkway parade for a session of pool. Can skip dinner for pool...Haven't played for so long, loved it!

Im planning for the next trip...maybe taiwan? i don't think i want to go to HK yet...=)

midweek blues come back again..

2006-05-18T10:38:00.000+08:00

Sighz....

After 3 days of work, I'm feeling sooooooo sleepy, I feel like I want to murder someone....Everybody so far is good, just that I'm the quiet and anti-social one. I don't really dare to talk much or anything. Just feeling scared and still thinking of my old company...my ex-colleagues. :(

Seems like I am a person who can't move on...nah! It's more like I miss the fun and dread the boredom. Suddenly Wayne's voice came on at the back of my head......When it's time to be serious, be serious..... But GODAMNIT! I am....just that I keep dozing off even after taking vitamins, sleeping and not thinking....wah kaOz! I hate it .... I hate the feeling of dozing off. The feeling in my head, at the side of my temple (forehead) is very painful! Even banging your head on the wall can't take the pain away...

:( :( I'm still in the midst of studying satellites and fibre optic network. I miss playing around with computers. Vista is due to come out in Jan 07. Damn! When I have computers to troubleshoot and all that....I never cherish the 'feeling'...Now I am dealing with satellites. *yawnz* I prefer to stick to watching the tv or sleep.

Now hear me scream....."help!" I keep falling asleep...

monday - start of work again.

2006-05-15T10:36:00.000+08:00

It's the first day I'm starting work and I already feel super sleepy. Suddenly the feeling of having no time to complete my assignments, to do my homework etc...is all coming back again. Sian.

Anyway, colleagues all look good...couple of them are into photography like me. That's nice to hear...haha

mid week

2006-05-10T22:49:00.000+08:00

When someone mentions Wednesday, my first few thoughts would be: -
1) Damn it, me and my mid week blues again..
2) Wah, so fast Wednesday already ah!!!
3) Aiyo, so sloooowww Wednesday only???

But this time I would be thinking..."Shit~! Another 5 more days (including Wed) more to WORK again?" ~urghhh!! And I have not even done any of the things I need to do. Remember my last entry? And I needed a haircut too....shucks shucks!

I just came back from a meeting with Stacey (my old time fren from way back in poly I think) and she's like my younger sis's age? 21yrs..Funny how I can click so well with her and not my sister. Luckily I still communicate with the youngest sister. Nowadays...not only generation gap is to blame, age gap is a big problem too. Anyways, as I was saying..We hung out at bugis. Had breko, ate steak...shopped shopped shopped for earrings, accessories, clothes then suddenly full stop. Cannot shop anymore...if go on, both of us will get $1 in our POSB accounts. So we stopped and grabbed a drink @Icon roof. Quite ex the drink considering they import it from Thailand..u know those 'old skool' kind of glass bottles? yea...Fanta, Coke those kind. $2.00 DaMn...So I fedup, bought can drink instead..

So there we were, gazing at the moon, gazing at the DHL hot air balloon blopping up and down, gazing over at the Parkview Square, where I will be working at next. Haiz....My colleague from my previous company is already in there learning the ropes already. But I am really afraid.....I dunno why. I always get the jitters in the last minute...useless me. Can't even handle something simple....

But it's alright, I will remain strong...be on time, smile more, learn smart, work smart and cannot be biased. I am a very biased person....that's y i pulled back my application of becoming a teacher. Sure lagi jialat one...The kids that I dun like sure die big time. That's y I CAN'T be a teacher. My bf must be thinking that I was procrastinating with the sending of the application form....but nah, I don't think teaching is cut out for me. I'm too biased...not that I'm impatient. haha

I think I need to modify my blog again. But seriously no time la....shitte. Exams are at the end of next month and my costly $178.00 text just arrived from Brisbane. Have to read it no matter wad...No matter how boring it is, it still has to be as interesting as the Harry Potter series. Damn, that book is infectious..I have to make my text the same way. But the question is...."How?" Go figure...

back from bkk

2006-05-08T00:14:00.000+08:00

This is just a short entry that I just came back from BKK ard 5hrs ago. Kinda tired but bags are still unpacked, loaded with alot of stuff. Worse being my fats...Having eaten Jap food almost every other day, drink starbucks there every other day (cos the water tastes weird) and eat haagen dazs for the last 3 days in a row. Scary i tell u...The waitress serving me in the Jap restaurants must be wondering where I came from, cos my neighbours (jap tourists) dun order as much as i do. *hint hint* so u know where to eat when u are in Thailand the next time....kekez!

Right now, im yawning away....kinda tired from all the walking ard, the exploring, the looking ard (i look alot to get everything in my head in the shortest time)...my eyes damn tiring can.

I didn't really by much food as in snacks from there, but i definitely bought alot of cute ideas back. Pretty expensive though i must say...But I dun get to find it in Singapore, so no choice u see. My luggage is like 1/10 filled when i went there, I came back with reasonably filled up luggage...with only 3 shirts, 1 pants, 1 jeans. undergarments and etc..Bought Bailey's from DFS to put in my fridge to drink..keke and the rest are all basically nothing much i guess.

Tasks for this week: -
1) unpack luggage
2) tidy up room (well, it's always the case, as it is never ever tidied)
3) get my frigging text book (im getting worried nw, and im going to complain to the damn uni)

This 3 above things done...I should be a happy person. =) Nights..

flying to bangkok

2006-05-02T07:44:00.000+08:00

weeee.....flight to bangkok in ard 1 hr plus time.

I will be travelling on my own the first 3 days. This is so exciting!!! I can get a feel of backpackin (beginners).

I am now using their free internet and the keyboard sucks. So closely spaced together. Argh...

Anyway, I am walking ard the DFS shops ard here. Feeling abit stoned but watever. I slept barely only an hour last night. Woke up at ard 445am.

Signing off. Will keep in touch.

fever er...

2006-04-24T00:51:00.000+08:00

I went to play pool on Sunday...Went out even though it's pouring and I dunno why, was never caught in the rain but still came back with fever. I somehow suspected that probably instead of using the teaspoon to consume your cough syrup, I ended up pouring into my mouth without measuring instead...holy right? keke but no...I ended up feeling sleepy and yawning till my eyes are soaked in tears already.

Anyway, by the time i got home, I was shivering already but I tried to remain as sane as I could. Oh well...Then by the time my head hit the pillows after my shower, a whole fleet of meh meh (sheeps) just flew past me, and I slept without counting them.

The next morning, I felt like I just consumed one whole packet of heroine. Throat dry, mouth dry, head blank and just no strength. Damn...Im useless. My room is messy, i procrastinate, i keep getting more magazines into my room and not doing any productive things. *damn*

Anyway, I rested quite abit on Monday. Woke up and read a little newspaper, followed by my magazines (long awaiting for me to read them)...then read up on Bangkok etc.

Went out to PS to meet Wayne and Nick for dinner. Home sweet home...

last day at work.

2006-04-21T11:45:00.000+08:00

It's my last day at this place where I worked for 1yr 8mths. Deep sentiments for that place and lotsa feelings left behind. Lou introduced me to this job when I found him on friendster. I met wonderful people inside and made alot of frens...

I felt really sad to have to move on, as others often put it..."it's a major phrase in life, you have to get on man"...

On my last day, I felt like crying but I dun see a point...I didn't even take pics with my best mates at work cos I knew I will be meeting them up again. Though all guys but they are the best mates at work. I can relate from cars to girls to anime to IT stuff...how much better can it get? okok, not really on girls but i talk to them about GUYS too! haha it's just a normal thing, I dun feel shy or awkward about it...*shrugs* I still somehow felt that I must have dropped my d*ck when I was being reincarnated...

Anyway, back to the story...I backup my work computer, said my farewell and also people said bye to me...somehow I tot it should be the other way round. But I was just too busy trying to backup my stuff. Oh well...

Had a nice lunch talk with my lunch buddies, chatting abt after work where to go for dinner and all...Decided to make it for Breko at Bugis. $10 for 2 bottles of beer..plus watever food. Can have an option of playing pool toO. Not bad hur?

So ard 930pm, everyone starts to leave...leaving me with Wayne and Giles. So we decided to wait up for Nick and head down to have a cup of tea at the indian shop at Liang Seah St. While waiting for Nick to sober up, he started sprouting a hell load of nonsense. *sighz* We were laughing so loudly, we totally ignored the rats nearby in the bushes...

So we headed down to play pool for a couple of hours..My pool was not bad today..But there's definitely still room for improvement. No consistency, not focusing....and sometimes nvr really aim. Haix. After that, I left with Nick to head down to Toa Payoh followed by Serangoon Gardens. Came back home and slept ard 2 plus...damn shiok! Wayne and Giles went back for another round of pool....can't believe it! They actually left me out on that....=p

Update
The operations manager at Globecast told me that I got the job! HooRay!! haha I knew I can do it...I knew I can make it. It's just that I have this religion - Carrism. It's all about believing in yourself and knowing that you can do it to make it right. It's the power of your mind and focusing on what u wan.

It's like playing pool. When u meet a new challenger, your game gets challenging and u will tend to have 4 kinds of consequences: -

1) Challenging game with both side winning
2) One winning, one losing
3) One quit, the other instant winner
4) both losers (rare)

Anyway, as I was implying..I would love this job but only setback would be the advancement from there. I want to make a difference but it must DEFINITELY be beneficial to ME. So watch this space...I shall keep u updated on that. Another issue would be that I hope I can make it for a Thailand trip early next mth. *keeping my fingers crossed*

Thanks guys...I enjoyed your company so much thru-out my stay in Acacia. And thanks to Raj for the PhantOm ride to Bugis! Awesome....*I believe I can flyyyyyyyyyyyyyy*

drink, drank, drunk

2006-04-16T21:19:00.000+08:00

It's been quite some time since I wrote in my blog huh? Nothing really happened though...it's all about facing another transition in life again. Like suddenly your primary school frens are not going out with u again...and that Im drinking every other weekend, be it wine or beer...Im having it down my throat. Plus everything in office just makes me wants to leave even faster than ever. Sianz....

It's really not because I want to leave because I want to. I just found out that 'Milk' actually told 'Kopi-O' that I said bad things about him and that led him to come against me. How nice eh? The best thing is that I didn't...'Milk' used to be my buddy at work. NOW however...it has turned otherwise. His every gaze is like 'i know what you are doing'. But u think I care? I used to...But not now. They can have their own war, internally or externally..but i really dun give a flying fuck. Cos Im outta your league. *smirks*

Im out venturing for a better job out there...better colleagues. But still can't be compared to my colleagues at Acacia. It was till someone starts trying to be PAP and Worker's Party then it became sour. Too bad la...have to move on. Time to move to another blog address also. I shall not reveal where...But the change will be within these few weeks.

everyone is leaving...

2006-03-31T23:42:00.000+08:00

It's Derrick's turn to leave today. We are heading to Carl's Jr and Paulaner after work today. Let me name the guys/girl in my group during my stay in Acacia. I really would miss them when it's my turn 3weeks from now.

1) Julie
2) Froy
3) Melvin
4) Aaron
5) Akbar
6) Basir
7) Derrick
8) Henry
9) Jasper
10) Justin
11) Khian Hong
12) Leo
13) Max
14) Raj
15) Ramon
16) Tony
17) Umaizy
18) Vincent / Jey (i treat them the same, so they are combined as one)
19) Sonia the Indian Chio Bu
20) Leonard
21) Louis
22) Tono
23) Saisoe
24) Eric / Roy / Cherie (new comers)

They have been influential to my life for a certain period of time. I had my ups and downs with them. My 'Circle of Trust' and 'Circle of Trustworthy'..I'm glad to have gain trust from certain people and lose trust in some.

As such, I have learnt alot of Melvin. He gave me alot of valuable advices but I was very stubborn and didn't take it seriously till I started thinking about it. Well, it's never to late to get back on my feet again.

Anyway, I'm looking forward to boardgames tonight =) Last week was double-O! I have yet to really edit the pics..but Mei has damn nice pics can. I think my photography skills might be degrading....

I am going to implement a section after each blog entry called...."random thoughts of the day".

back to the hospital again?

2006-03-07T23:40:00.000+08:00

Nah, not really back to the hospital again but more like for followup treatments. It's a good sign that my leg is not as swollen as I tot it will be. It's like sooo 'fish-market' in department H in SGH. I quickly dig for my followup treatment card and just nice I bumped into Christopher! He is one of Wayne's fren and he, like me injured his knee too only thing is that he's on the right whereas mine is on the left. I try to get pics here but it's damn funny just looking at it. Yeah, his knee is still in a pretty bad condition and I was scared for my dear life..I was just hoping that my knee would behave that's all.

After Chris left, I still have not entered the damn consultation room. Sighz! Finally, my turn..I sashayed into the room and sat down almost trembling. Dr Darren Tay...Hmm. Then he asked "So how's your knee?"..I said yeah, pretty good. Recovering pretty fast but just can't walk for long..can't run at all. Then I asked all the questions I tot of before coming to see him...

1) What kinda of food must I eat to improve the recovery
2) What kind of excercises can I do and must refrain from
3) What kind of excercises strengthen my knee
4) How is my knee currently
5) Is there another chance that this kind of issue will occur again
6) What happen to my knee exactly

Those are the knee 'questions' that I asked the doc. Think he just wants to cut them all short and recommend me for physio instead. Damn...Doctors are just as lazy and they earn so much. Pigs.

After that I met up with Royce and his cousins for a couple of rounds of pool and then we went to meet up with Mei. I can't really remember now since I'm backtracking..Oh I remembered!! haha damn...my memory is really good sometimes. We went to have dinner. Just the four of us. I kept talking to Mei asking her what are we going to do this week..so exciting. We haven't really got a chance to do all these all these years. haha Wayne came down to join us for pool at pool fusion III also. But because of soccer, he left early so that he can go home to catch his 40 winks to catch a soccer match later in the morning.

So there u go..left 4 of us. We went for bak chor mee then I really wanted Kaya toast..but bugis dun have. So we decided to go down to Kovan for some whatever is there. We had bean curd after walking up and down just to decide.

Then while eating our beancurd halfway....they decided to do something silly. They asked me to call Dong Neng since he's like leaving so near. And Im like "ARE U MAD?!" then after hesistating for the longest time ever...They called. I talk....And we decided to meet up this SAT! He was talking in this tone like very happy and shocked to hear from all of us. Damn..how come no one gave me this kind of treatment? -_-;

Anyway, after all the discussions...we left for home after that. =)

Monday Morning 9AM

2006-03-06T21:36:00.000+08:00

Sighz...monday morning 9am. Work work and more horrendous calls coming. It's always mixed feelings before I pick up a call. Because it's like either a horrible customer who's going to speak to u or just someone who is really nice.

I'm counting down the days...April 7. Not that I'm eager to leave this place...but the company makes me more eager to leave. But oh well....I'm re-evaluating everything again. There are alot of 'what-ifs'...alot of 'buts'. I am not sick of anything ..just sick of the routine. I am hungry to know more about technology, more about what they can do for us in the future. Not explaining to customers how the computer works. It's tiring especially when they don't understand.

Sighzz..Have been meeting up with my primary school frens lately, mainly Mei and Royce. Have became very close and attached to them. At least now I have friends to talk and confine in. I enjoyed their company too. We always say we wanted to take a pic and put in friendster...but each time we meet up, we talk and talk and talk....that happens when a bunch of roosters are put together. I think when we gather more roosters to come....there will be endless crowing, cluttering and chit-chatting. It's different if a bunch of 'monkeys' are together. They will be doing square rooms in one corner and probably doing 'vengaboys' the next min. lolz...but 'roosters' are different. We act classy and we continue yakking like there's simply no tmrw.

Anyway, had butter + sugar toast with eggs and tea after work with Wayne. Then it's like back home after that. Home is boring.....except for my room of course.

back to work

2006-03-04T21:22:00.000+08:00

Yeah, back to work.

I woke up amazingly early and that the stupid shuttle bus never came. So in ther end, I have to go by MRT way then cab.

Very happy to meet my colleagues back at work but not happy to work. I'm damn relieved that I handed the resignation letter early else I would actually felt that tinge of regret.

Went to meet Wayne after work and we went to register for my unit for Sem 1. =) Pool after that and we tried looking for NICK! JustWine? Then in the end, we went to Toa Payoh for dinner at Crystal Jade. I had my fav Dumpling Noodles...So 'hongkong'. After which, Nick suddenly rang Wayne and the next thing we knew......we are at JustWine.

Darn...I didn't want to go but still went in the end. I didn't want to go home anyway. I tot of just tidying up my corner first to rearrange a space for magazines. =)

Reached home at like midnight. Half dead cos of the alcohol. I know i'm lousy but oh well.....

walk walk walk

2006-03-03T00:06:00.000+08:00

Im trying to walk a little by little. Seems pretty difficult but i believe that I will somehow be able to walk steadily again.

It pains me now that I can't attend kickboxing class :( :( I wanted so much to attend and on my second lesson....this rubbish thing can happen.

Sighz.

My mum is ridiculous. She said I have been grumbling alot these few days...bloody hell!!! like she's doesn't like that. I just kept my mouth damn shut just to avoid arguements and there she goes stepping over my head like that. What kind of mother is this. fuckanathan. Cannot believe it...there are more things but what the hell! I don't want to be accused of airing my dirty linen. Fucked up.

Played pool with Wayne today...i think I have been storing up too much power already. Finally have qi long zhu today. Means all 7 balls go in consecutively. I must really own it to Wayne for giving me the guidance and patience when he taught me pool. Think he must be really proud of me also :)

Leg recovering?

2006-02-28T20:48:00.000+08:00

I was practising how to walk today with one crutch and then without. Still kinda swollen but what the hell.

I just finished watching a movie that I downloaded "Turn Left, Turn Right", a movie quite long ago by Johnny To and a story writtern by Jimmy Liao. Very nice story! I'm glad that they finally met up in the the best scenario ever. Hahaha..

Anyway, I was having a headache today...OH SHIT!! I forgot to take my medicine!! Okie, fine...I just got up to take it already. Damn, I can't complain that it's bored at home..But I'm accelerating everything by learning how to walk without depending on the crutches. Sighz...

And I feel sleepy most of the time. Sheesh man. I wonder what is it gonna be like without a job and no money. =(

pig trotter (fresh)

2006-02-26T23:37:00.000+08:00

Remember I told you about the knee injury? Yeah, went to SGH with Wayne after work yesterday. I was already limping very badly already. It's kinda swollen and oh well...like can't bend that kind.

So I as usual - 'ai si mai mia' limp my way up that SGH slope...thinking back, it's damn incredible lor. Never mind, at least Wayne is there to laugh at my jokes and we were joking under the bright hot sun. Oh well...Then upon reaching there, was quite worried. I'm in the A&E ward, was expecting to see something dramatic. But upon seeing those people waiting for their turn, I decided to act abit drama, so I limp damn funnily but at the same time try not to aggravate the injury. Was trying to see if I'm able to get in first u see..

Then after registering, I decided that acting dramatic was not the way. Oh well, so I waited for my turn and sat near the aisle. Within the next 5mins, the drama that I was anticipating arrived......Ambulance, people scrambling ard..THEN the trolley got pushed in and among all the sheets of blanket, there is a frail old lady amidst it. The breathing mask almost took up the whole of her face and when the trolley was pushed past in front, I can feel like it's going slow-mo for me to see.

The next thing i know.....her daughters were at one corner crying their hearts out. Damn scary lor...I was like thinking hey, life is really short man. Outside the hospital is a place of opportunities, unlike in the hospital when u are dying and u can't go out anymore. While listening to that old lady's daughters cries, I unknowingly felt tears accumulating in my eyes too. Sighz....

Alright, back to my knee. I went to a Triage - blood pressure, purse and short description of what happen was taken down inside. Then I went on to the consultation corner where i waited for my turn. Then an Indian doctor took a look at my knee and suspected either something was torn OR blood clot (something I dun wan to hear). She advised me to take a urine test cos she scared I'm pregnant. Was going to take Xray u see...So cannot be pregnant. So never mind, I was just making fun at a middle-aged man earlier for leaving his urine at the 'inbox' tray. And gosh, it's the same cup I used for wine-drinking last week at Botanical Gardens!!!

So I went to take my urine miserably and it looks like Savinuogne Blanc(however u spelt it). Oh well, and I called the nurse testing the urine the wine taster. U see, the nurse has to put a litmus paper in there right? But no, for 'wine-tasters' u have to swirl my urine, smell it hard and sip it and let it flow thru your palates...then u will know whether am I pregnant or not. Wayne and I was laughing so hard, my knee starts to hurt again. Lolzzz

Then came the Xray part, the nurse told me to put my legs as straight as possible. Oh well, I did try and half the time, I bit my thumb :p then sideways shot. How cool. I got a glimpse of my thigh bones and shin bones later when I met up with the 'leg doctor'. So after that, I was given a shot in my butt!!! Too bad I wasn't a guy cos that nurse was quite pretty...eh! quite only! Anyway, I was yelping when I went out to look for Wayne. I 'yelped' when I sat down, 'yelped' when I shifted my butt and 'yelped' when the medicine was flowing all ard my butt.

Then next stop...the 'wound doctor' aka 'leg doctor'. I prayed hard not to get ay incisions or watever operation. The doctor gave me 8 days MC. And he said he suspected it could be due to muscle torn. THEN I looked up and saw that gorgeous shot of my thigh and shin bone!! OMG....the fats surrounding my leg made it look damn spoiler! Seriously...even the side view looked damn good. I was looking at my bones and I was like amazed! Oh well..Then he said that he would need to be like 'my-friend' over there. Wayne's friend had the same injury as me, except that his is on the right leg whereas mine is on the left. Then I was so afraid that he's going to cut me up!! cos his leg was sooooo huge! I almost cried...

Then the doctor said, 'don't worry, i am going to have to bandage your leg up to fix up the muscle'. Then I was like 'oh, that's it?' oh well...I scared myself. Then I laid on their surgical bed and the doctors helped me to bandage up my leg and put it in a cast. Not a full cast but more like a partial cast to support my leg and make it straight. I still have to wait for it to set. Gosh, it's damn heavy can! I tried hobbing ard but i'm afraid that my right leg might give way. Never mind, I still have to take crutches.

While waiting for the physioterapist to come, I practised on my own with the crutches...and even before that physioterapist arrived, I left. Take so long, I would have walked out of the hospital myself already. So both Wayne and I went back to my home :)

We ate like we never ate before. So hungry!!

Right after my instant noodles, I slept like a log till the next morning 1030am. Gosh...this is good sleep man.

recurring knee problems?

2006-02-25T11:09:00.000+08:00

I am feeling miserable now...damn miserable.

I woke up this morning, I can't walk properly at all. My knee seems locked already! Im suspecting two things. PCL or ACL ligament is torn or sprained.

Symptoms being:-

1) heard a pop sound when injury happened
2) limp felt 'loose'
3) difficulty in walking
4) leg felt 'locked'

Oh man...it's just combat excercise leh!! Doing my favourite workout and then kenna this kind of farked up injury. *sob sob*

at 0230hrs this morning, i was staring at a diagram and a cross section of a knee and see where are the four impt ligaments located. I felt damn sad....not to be able to run and walk properly. It's damn painful.

Sighz...later see doctor again. That's one place where I hate to visit the most...damn it!

knee pain pain

2006-02-24T11:58:00.000+08:00

I was having a terrible bad throat + cough the past few days. I seriously have no idea why my colleagues don't experience what I am experiencing. Maybe they do? *shrugs* When I came home after gym on Tues, my tonsils were damn red...not normal pink. It's like red...Apart from that, I kept going into coughing fits like I'm choking or something. I was thinking hey, never mind, still fit to go to work tmrw..End up by Thurs, I have bumps on the top of my throat and by fri morning, there is an ulcer there! what the fark?

I was coughing in pain at night...maybe I tried to hard to talk to customers. In fact, Im pretty surprised with customers nowadays. Since Mon, lotsa angry customers called...and by the time they put down, they are satisfied customers who enjoyed talking to me. I felt satisfied too of course. But my throat hurts damn bad...the funny thing was I didn't drink much tea, I drank lotsa water?! Strange...

Today, since my throat is having ulcer, I thought "hey, must be heaty...". So I made my way to the gym after a visit to the doctor. Was damn happy to be able to attend 'body combat' after so long..So I did my usual warm-ups, some dumb-bells lifting, some running, some cycling...and so the class finally started. =)

I am suspecting whether could it be the 'fengshui' at the place i was standing is bad or is it me...see, there are mirrors on my left and there's a damn pillar on my right. Somehow during the workout, Im always staring at a man's knee guard (NOT that the man was cute or anything) but my eyes kept wondering to his knee guard. And so, ard the 3rd quarter, I sprained my knee. This is farking painful and I was farking sad. I was kinda worried. I couldn't put it straight and I panicked. I just grabbed my bottle and towels are limped out straightaway hoping no one saw me. I quickly went to look for baby, luckily i saw him..was so freaked out that I am more afraid that I can't walk. Alot of things went in and out of my brain like "what if i can't get on the bus again? Will I look like an old woman? I don't like people to see me like this, how? What will happen if next time when i'm pregnant? What the fark happened to my knee? Shit will I have enough to pay the bloody doctor? I don't like ambulance!! Will I be a cripple? Damn, does this means that really no more sports??? How am I going to work??...."

Yeah that were some of the things that were in my head when I sat down on the sofa while baby checked my knee. Somehow, it hasn't swelled up yet. Damn, I'm going to miss body combat awhile..not miss as in don't go, miss as in really want to go. I love combat martial arts alot..goddamnit!!! what's with this year? First I started with a bad flu, then sore throat, then quit my job, then throat ulcer then now THIS! farked up!

Worse was my application for NIE was rejected. God knows why. But on the good side, while I was going to type out this blog, I wouldn't be suspended for my studies. It shall continue as usual. I just a letter from my uni. Phew...but on the hind side, that means MONEY. Sighz..this is terrible.

I miss playing sports alot. Like badminton, bball, softball, running...=( I dunno...When will my 2006 be better? I'm happy to have met Mei and Royce..at least I have frens to confine in. And of course baby to shower me with love, attention and of course someone whom I can relate to.

You know what I really want to do now? I want to travel the world...all around the world to take pictures of agony, joy, peace, riots and animals. I feel very confined here, like alot of creativity and knowledge have not been released or unleashed within me. I felt like Im capable of better things not just like what I am now..the environment that I'm in now is very 'cramp', very 'stuffy'...=(

new blood ?

2006-02-22T11:20:00.000+08:00

Hur hur hur....there are 2 newcomers today. There are a total of 3 already. Company has employed 3 new blood to 'suck'. With 4 people leaving, including me...I hope the call center would be going on good.

Damn! alot of calls these few days man, that I don't even have much time to surf net or type blog. I really think there's not enuf time left...

Things to do:-

1) New shelf from Ikea
2) shift computer down = more privacy for me to do my own things
3) re-evaluate my career
4) re-think my goals & aims
5) more money (hopefully some from the sky)

I'm turning 25 soon, and I feel like I'm neither here nor there. I'm not getting what I want nor am I doing things that I want. Yeah yeah, I know...But I'm a person who either do what I want OR do things that I don't like and not putting in effort.

Arggghhhhhh.....I'm not complaining or grumbling. I want the best of me. I can't even bring out the best in me. I can't even do a simple thing right....my growing up stage was fucked up, totally screwed. Now I have to rearrange them all again....this seems damn disturbing. And I really hate it.

sick on V-day

2006-02-14T23:43:00.000+08:00

It's terrible. First I didn't realise that it was v-day. Second, I so wanted to wake up and go to work, only to have found that I lost my voice and my whole body was aching from neck to toe. 2006 seems to have made me more sick-prone...flu isn't what I always have in 2005. But now, my nose seems to be sniffing every week without fail.

I recently signed up for Planet Fitness and have been doing workouts..I admit of being a lazy person but this seems to interest me quite alot. So I went for their workouts instead of working out on the machines. I did cycling and some other other treadmill running but grown bored of it instantly.

I am thinking real hard lately...so hard, I fall asleep instantly when I touch the bed/pillow. I need direction...my sense of direction tends to screw up more often than usual nowadays. I need something more concrete.

Anyway, when I went to see the doctor later in the afternoon....he said that my tonsils are inflamed. And my throat seems like a red cave. Damnit..and no one in my office would care even. They tot I just love taking MCs. I went home and drank honey and that black throat medicine - chuan pei pi pai gao. That medicine was the turning point...my voice came back after one hour flat. *amazing*

My v-day dinner at yoshinoya and played pool for awhile. Nothing fantastic but it beats the 'romantic' way of queuing outside fish and co or jack's place for ages. Too romantic already :) Don't get it wrong...I prefer it that way. I rather my bf sends me flowers every other day except vday.

fearless.

2006-02-13T01:29:00.000+08:00

Went to pay a visit to Wayne's parents. Got them some new year goodies and went to repair my spectacles. Heard Fearless was good. 'Huo Yuan Jia" A MUST-WATCH movie this spring. I respect the movie alot..but the ending was pretty much expected considering his status. Story line was awesome..

Went to shop for my office pants and finally got a okie-looking pair. Wayne and I decided to sign up to Planet Fitness and start workout. We shall go and try tmrw and see how. Apart from that, we had dinner at Carl's Jr and walked ard in Marina Sq.

I am still fuming with both my sisters now and I hate to explain why. It might sound stupid but I am a person who hate other people who touches/uses/takes my things without asking for permission. And I really value the peace that I get in my own room, my youngest sister would love to suck up that peaceful moment of mine. Arghhhh...Watever it is, I am just going to try sleeping it away. I can't stand it and one way or another, I just have to pity my parents for having three siblings that don't love each other and don't know how to. Sad case...really.

D&D

2006-02-13T01:11:00.000+08:00

After work on Sat, went to meet my primary school friends in Orchard for a game of pool. I have always loved to play pool so I guess it was great to be able to share the same interest with my pri school frens.

Royce met up with me at Orchard MRT and we made our way to the pool center at Lucky Plaza. Had ard 4 games then Mei and her bf joined us. Royce played pretty well considering he hasn't played for a year. *gosh* I wonder if he was joking abt it. Anyway, Wayne joined us an hour later. So we played doubles, Mei didn't joined us as her back was pain.

After the game, we had a short meal at Mac in Lucky Plaza. Left after that to wait for my colleagues to meet up halfway on the bus to Great World. So I went to walk ard in Popular first. Met up with them on bus 16 and we headed down to Great World City to have our D&D. Wasted I didn't wear my cheong sum top. I totally forgotten all about it....(-_-)

Anyway, we reached there pretty early I must say. Took some photos of the place and we sat ard to talk. Meals were served ard 8+...Stored power for a damn long time already so our table gulp down the shark's fin, the scallop, the roasted chicken, the yu sheng and every other thing. Full.....Then drank red wine, beer, water and chinese tea. lolz ...To think that I actually drank lotsa wine the night before...2 bottles of white and 1 bottle of red. alamak...growing fatter and fatter as the days goes by.

Midway, we went out to take more pics. The happier times of us together. I am soooo going to miss my colleagues. They are probably one of the best so far in my entire life. I am able to talk to them about things I like, personal things, work things and every other things. It will serve as a good memory to me when I reflect back. Anyway, took a pic with my evil twin - KC and the whole bunch of my colleagues and my AM (who's also leaving). Sighz...Seems like Im not the only person who needs to move on.

Another fellow who I will quite miss will probably be Jey. We were really good till some arguements and all just came abt - totally uncalled for. But whatever it is, I'm glad he made it so far. Lotsa people might not like him or anything but as I said, I'm not a person who discriminate. Since the little arguement, we have remained as colleagues. Sad but oh well...at least on talking terms. He's gone for a month. Aaron and Derrick will be gone soon too.

After the dinner, I have to make it back myself. Sickening jam...ohh! Thaipusum. (-_-)....I didn't know they have to carry the kavadi till so late at night. *ouch* Watever it is, I was stuck in the jam and me, myself and I ta the whole cab fare myself....siong siong siong! arghh

home sweet home...I slept as peaceful as ever.

resigned to the world

2006-02-11T00:37:00.000+08:00

I have been feeling very down, un-motivated lately, feeling sluggish, feeling like the world is ending and just heading no where.

It pains me to feel this way..I am basically not a person who gets angry, bad-tempered or unhappy unless if there's something affecting me or something. I value my friends but not when they don't value me.

I recently resigned from HP. Pretty stupid huh? But I evaluated the whole thing for 2 entire months..I am not getting enuf job satisfaction, I am feeling "outcasted" maybe even blacklisted..If they really 'hate' me so much, what's my purpose in staying? Can't wait to get rid of me so that you can get promoted huh? Anyway, no point staying..I don't want to be unhappy, neither do I want to see my TL so sick of shouting at me to pick up a bloody call. He will be most happy not to be able to do that anymore. I can be the best agent but I just didn't want to. I don't know why either, I don't know what's stopping me...That's y each time TL or AM looks for me, it's painful and I don't know why I don't explain myself. It's saddening to withhold my capability.

Whatever it is, I told myself..Three callings and I will resign. True enuf, it came. I have always followed my heart. Khian Hong told me, no matter what u do, don't regret. Well, it's true. My mum said, never live to regret.

Watever it is. I guess it's time to move on.

exams are finally overrrrr

2006-02-07T18:13:00.000+08:00

exams are so finally overrrrr.....

*yawnz* what i need now is a 24 hours marathon sleep.

And my eyes can hardly open and my brain can hardly function...I need water and sleep. My eyes are puffy so are my cheeks. Argh...this is bad. How am I supposed to walk ard in office and outside...? *covers face*

Nevermind...I shall continue my TVB pilot show. hehe "triumph to the skies"...cantonese version. Hou hou tai arh..

exam fever

2006-02-02T13:48:00.000+08:00

I was listening to "The Best of.....Bee Gees" the other day. "Night Fever" was one of the nicest tracks in there...and now? I am having exam fever. Literally due to flu, fever AND lack of sleep. I swallowed loads of vitamins and supplements to keep me up and going. But can feel like deep within me, my body is crumpling.

"yelp" yeah...it's that bad can. But one the whole, I'm still very happy cos I believed I will do well and I don't feel like I have that 'bad feeling' when I took the papers the past few days....A good sign u know? *screams* I hope to do well. Maybe a B ( dare not aim too high)...=p

Anyway, feeling damn kang kor now can. I reached work slightly too early and nothing to do so just blog only =p blog my heatiness away...I can feel a bump coming out on my face *oh man!!* I soooo can't wait for 7th feb.

I was looking thru a few reviews on DSLR cams the past few weeks. But was still thinking if I should get a prosumer Canon S2 IS or should I stick with the big guys like Canon, Olympus and Nikon. Not saying that the rest is lousy but just sticking to my preferences...

DSLR to consider: -
1) Olympus E330
2) Canon 350D
3) Nikon D70s (ex laaaaaaa)
4) Canon 20D (if i strike toto then say)....

It's just a consideration cos I am planning to go deeep deeep into photography. I want to renovate my whole room and make it spanking clean till can floor ski! *hohoho* These are also to keep me busy...

In the meantime, I will have to re-evaluate all my priorities and start looking for a job. I will still stick to this job in the meantime to re-evaluate what I wan in life. Being fussy and fickle-minded at times has it's good points and bad points. But if there's something that I really want in life (too many things) I will tell myself that I WILL get it...no matter what it takes. ;o)

Sucky...the bottom line, those people who don't know how to use computers...stay away from it, don't try to be smart. Not to say that i'm damn smart either *sniggers*

i fell sick

2006-02-02T00:01:00.000+08:00

sob sob...

I'm happy that I did well for today's paper. But I'm feeling ill. I had flu the past few days and I'm now running a fever.

So much for studying...but like baby always say. It's all worth it. Being a lazy me, I love procrastinating my studies right to the very last min not even hour. I think it's an in-borne habit. It just doesn't work even if I study way in advance cos I will end up sleeping and snoring anyway.

Right now, Im mugging for OB. I'm taking a very short break so I decided to type my feelings in here. I soooooo can't wait for 7th feb. Esp at 12.15pm sharp. It marks my freedom....

By then, I would be soooo sleepy and tired that I would just sleep and sleep for the rest of the week. Maybe continue to draw up the shelf that I designed for my room. Argghhh my head hurts badly now....

Trust me, flu isn't something good...I had this flu since CNY first day. How irritating...Even my most power flu medicine doesn't seem to work on me. Don't tell me what they predict really true lor....

www.wayonnet.com

Help....Im drowning my heatiness with H2O. My throat is dry, my nose is like partially blocked. My head is thumping. I think I have to stay away from my dog....till my flu is cured. Wish me luck for my papers....*mwah*

Happy Chinese New Year

2006-01-30T21:00:00.000+08:00

Let's welcome the dog year and with abundance of luck, good health, wealth and more opportunities in the year 2006.

It's been pretty good so far =o). I slept till ard 10 ++ this morning and I had loads of fun. I of course first thing i woke up, i went to wash up and headed straight to my books. Revised again for the remaining chapters. Though I was yawning most of the time but wat the heck...Still have to complete. =)

Anyway, Wayne came to my house to 'pai nian'. After staying in for awhile till the sun was not too hot, we headed to his grandma's house to 'pai nian'. Haha it's nice to go over to his grandma's place cos it's very warm over there. And his cousin happens to be one of my frens. It started to rain while we were waiting for the bus...damn, frequency of the bus damn long can. Good thing when we decided not to take a cab, the bus finally arrived. So we headed to Toa Payoh. His grandma is living in one of the 40 storeys flat near the HDB hub there. Damn windy...such a pity I was eating and chatting till I forgot to take pics!!!! argh....

Xiang Yang came along with his family and we decided to play cards. I didn't win that miserably because good thing Wayne is good in his cards ;) ho ho ho Decided to hang ard more and then Ying Jie joined us also..We decided to follow the tradition to go down to Pot Black again this year just like the last year. We went to the exact same place, did the exact same thing (play pool) and had fun. Then Xiang Yang's bro (Xiang Yew) came down to join us and we went to Clarke Quay. Wanted to have something to eat, but everywhere seems to be closing..MOS is as usual crowded *yawnz* the whole carpark beside MOS seems to be filled with zeng-ed cars...lotsa of Subaru WRX, Lancer Evo 9 (not even an 8) and the rest are all expensive cars that u and i can nvr afford. Porsche Cayenne (2 actually) at the VIP valet there. =p Watever...let's move on. So we wanted to go to Brewerks...also closing. Then we went next door. THE IGUANA.

Nice place, nice atmosphere, nice setting...ate torrilla chips with salsa and avalcado. Pretty good. U dun wan to know what I drink or drank.....Ehh, latte, water and strawberry magarita. I stoned the whole time till the latte took effect. ho ho ho..

While i was in stoning mode, I couldn't wait till after 7th feb. It's like graduation but it's not. It's freedom. Here's the list of what I will do after 7th feb.

1) decorate my room (ikea shelf, ikea this, ikea that...that reminds me...disco ball!!)
2) camera (DSLR research)
3) read up on fengshui
4) clothes shopping (miserable la)
5) redo resume and mass send
6) research on teaching
7) backup data from desktop
8) sleep and lose more weight

ARGHH!!! I can't wait for 7th to come...there is a countdown thingy on my table already. I am going to the temple tmrw, and I have to wake up by all means. Right now....it's back to work. Mugging for exams are such a pain in my ass...=p literally.

exams fever

2006-01-23T16:59:00.000+08:00

As usual, while everyone else is going to be sooo happening and enjoy their 'ang-pow' harvesting...I will be in my room 'harvesting' info to study for my exams. My exams are going to start on the 1st Feb. Arghhh...

I'm again stuck in the middle of a crossroad. I hate to leave but I also have no choice. Right now, I will have to slog and slog....till the 7th.

Sighzz..while everyone else is starting to study, I feel like my brain is shutting down on me already. I think sometimes I can't help but declared that I'm just that lousy. I can never figure out how to study, how to do good essays and reports.

While I take a break from studies...again. I will work on my weakness (not cravings pls) like writing good essays and doing a good report. Maybe....maybe...I should start writing an essay/review on gadgets.

procrastination

2006-01-19T23:32:00.000+08:00

Hatred for this word and refusal to be at it's command...
Been a slave to this word and weak at the thought that it offering me goodies and yummies...
The after and side effects of this word isn't your bed of roses...
It's more like someone pulling u back and strangling u real hard with a tight grip...
Worse...it's an addiction. But something you want to run away from, worse than smoking or taking drugs..

It's procrastination.

In my description: the act of delaying, taking your own sweet time, thinking that whatever u are procrastinating would be done while u are at it...

There are definitely many side effects and after effects, depending on severity.

It's a sad thing that my whole family are procrastinators...EXCEPT for my dad. He only procrastinate in housework (which I understand).

While I'm typing this, I should not procrastinate. It makes me guilty...wasting my time on things that are not top on my priority list. Seems easy to do eh? Well....not so for my case.

just a quick update

2006-01-14T21:18:00.000+08:00

Just a quick update, have been busy like a bee lately. Work requires my full concentration unlike the old days. Studies requires my upmost full concentration...which my mind will tend to wonder. *tsk tsk*

Let me tell u what has been in my mind lately: - (all from most impt to not impt)

1) Show Cause (shall not explain so much about this)
2) Assignments (these are worse than doing chinese compositions)
3) my future
4) exams
5) a new ikea shelf - GORM combination

Lately there are loads of buffet to try..latest was the one recommended by Khian Hong & Jasper - having escargots (buttered somemore). Free flow..on top of that, u get buddha jump over the wall, oysters blah blah blah. The thought of it just makes me restless...and there's one over at 50 Stadium Boulevard (Oasis @Kallang)...sashimi free flow is the phrase I sooooo wanted to hear! Followed by lotsa other japanese cusine yummies.
kk, back to work. Gotta go back to my work - assignments. This is getting on my nerves and I just can't wait to finish it and get over and done with it. After my exams, I might then be able to come up with a proper entry in many months. ho ho ho

anger management

2006-01-08T23:36:00.000+08:00

Im pissed with the iron in my house. It has tripped my house's power circuit a thousand times causing an improper shutdown on my lappie. Shitty piece of thing...Im SO going to get it changed tmrw.

I had a bad week last week, it suck so bad. And that was after my haircut and that includes trimming my eyebrow. I believed that's the main cause of it. I always believe in not trimming my eyebrows too thin cos it's like plucking away your luck. Haiz..I have been called up for a 1-2-1 talk with the manager (which i hate most), bad time with customers on the phone, breakout on my face, uncomfortable sleep most of the nights, feeling very pissed the whole time, feeling broke in the 1st week of the month, stressed out, grumpy, want to be left alone, don't want to talk to anyone, get angry easily....that's what happened after my visit at the salon. And that's at Klearcut in serangoon gardens. It suck! Cut so little, I pay so much...what siar! I colored my hair red...and it looks more like maroon plus brown instead of red! =p I don't ever think I will go there again.

Now I will have to wait for my eyebrows to grow back. I can't kerb my temper this time, my mum said I was grumbling too much when the iron trip the circuit and I was so pissed I came upstairs and bang the table so hard, my gundam dropped down. I never felt so angry before. I felt like kicking the wall...when I looked into the mirror....my face was all red. I couldn't believe it...it's weird. I never told anyone about this mysterious after-effect from coloring hair to red and trimming my eyebrows. I never did anything else apart from that, i mean like cursing or swearing un-necessary which offended someone or I didn't step on anything...

I am damn stressed out at work and of school. The temptation to just end it all is like hanging a huge juicy carrot in front of a rabbit. It's probably more tempting than that. But I held on...I know it's part of the whole package. Getting a freaking degree is not as easy as I thought it was. I hate it...seriously. The best thing to inspire me was...u know what I did? took sat's edition of RECRUIT and flipped thru. Well...kinda inspired me for that few mins I flipped thru. The moment I put down the paper....It has the word 'SIAN' all over my face.

And I think my baby is not that tolerant. Well, i understand that from myself, everyone has their limit. So I guess, if u are not tolerant, just end the conversation..which he did.

I dunno..I'm still having alot of anger in me, I tried letting it out but i can't. I have tried sleeping it away, played java games (last week), read my text, draw, stone..arghh!! the best thing was it rained the entire day and having a public holiday on tues didn't help a single bit. I tried weaning myself of my supplements but it doesn't help too...I really have no idea y.

I guess I'm losing my friends...which I think they can't be bothered also. Or is it the other way...My friends are losing me? I have not talked much on msn or to anyone else at work, on the phone or anywhere else...I'm just happy being myself. Even when people misunderstand me, i dun feel like explaining...which is SO UNLIKE me.

This is not being pessimistic. But more like just confused, angry and dejected. Being a perfectionist before, I failed many times. I probably couldn't accept it that I am lousier than others..I can't accept that I can't even do a simple thing properly. I'm a person who goes for details, every single detail is impt to me. But watever....explaining it also no use. I'm just angry with myself.

I hope for a better week...tmrw.

wala wala

2006-01-07T09:33:00.000+08:00

It was all fun at wala wala yesterday though it was damn boring in the beginning and I just sat there and sip my wine (1 for 1) haha..

Let's not talk about work in this new year, it's beginning to get real bad. Management protects themselves and not us. Exam leave are not the same again..wherever is there such a thing like 1/2 day? watever la...

Nowadays, I spend my evening sitting down to accompany my mum, talk to her etc etc..sometimes she bad mood, she just growl at me. =( But when I bad mood, I would just keep very quiet and when she starts to make alot of noise (nagging, grumbling)..it's my turn to growl.

I know my darling is like damn tolerant with my nonsense, but i can't help it also. I tried to calm up at home in the comfort of my own room. At least I feel happier..cos when I'm unhappy, I don't like people ard me to be unhappy or me spoiling their mood un-necessarily also. Haiz..But oh well, at times when I get overboard..darling will scream!!....i mean scold. haha

ok, let's get constructive here after all the nonsense I have typed above. First thing first........STUDY. Money can always be earned. Sighzz...kk, let me get back to work.

sighzz

2006-01-06T09:26:00.000+08:00

Going to Wala Wala tonight..not really keen on it but I think I would need to de-stress anyway. I am feeling it already, the stress both at work and at home. This week is yucky...really sucks!

1) haircolor/cut/treatment = costs me a bomb
2) taxi fare that can go up to $17+
3) no time to do my assignments
4) anxious about my show cause
5) exams are nearing very soon
6) I haven't cleaned my house's stupid windows...*spring cleaning* la

Well, try multiplying everything up, it's only plus or multiply...no divide or minus used yet.

bad mood

2006-01-02T15:13:00.000+08:00

Im in a terrible bad mood today..

I woke up with the whole house empty, just me and my dog. I woke up at ard 1230? Then I wondered downstairs to have my breakfast. I'm just feeling terrible..must be because I slept at 5plus yest and managed to even break my high score at tetris which is worse. Got me so excited that I couldn't even sleep.

Groans...and my feet is still so pain from the blisters. My hair is in a grand mess and it's dropping and it's screaming "I NEED A TRIM"!!

sighz..what a day to start off new year. I hate to go back to work..i'm not happy anymore.

There's no such things call "friends" to me. They are just a name...just more like an adjective rather than a noun. The frequency of communication is not there..there is no trust. Both are things that I want in a friendship. Only one person fits the bill so far. My darling wayne. The rest...makes me disappointed. They don't understand me enough? whatever...think what u like. And whether I feel secure or not is non of your fucking business. alright? like u have a damn secure life to start with. I don't need you reading my blog to tell me if it's secure or not.

2006-01-01T01:11:00.000+08:00

I just had one of the best new year party ever. It beats celebrating with all the banglah in orchard rd or it beats staying inside the theatre watching a blockbuster movie...I had free flow of wine/liquor all thru the night. muahaha...Muse Inc has shifted. It's plonked right in the center of Club Street, just opposite PartyWorld KTV. Had a new year party there. Dressed my so-called best, with heels and all. Came home half blur and blisters =p..

Met up with darling after sleeping the whole morning away as usual. I had late breakfast, read abit of my notes (which I should) and headed off for a short one hour nap with a face mask. Quickly woke up and dressed up. Went to City Hall mrt and we waited up for Nick. Went to have "dinner" at Ya Kun Kaya Toast at Raffles City. I have been having sinful cravings for their soft-boiled eggs and teh..it's like the best ever. The teh is lovely, not so sweet, not so heavy. The soft-boiled eggs are like HUGE. But I will walk out of the store thinking of my cholestrol level....=S sinful siar...

Hahaha, we took a bus and headed down to Club st..where the party starts! I can't be bothered with celebrating new year anyway, all what I wanted in a new year is a better year. I want success and everything i do would be successful. Healthy and opportunities everywhere...good friends stay, bad friends get lost. If u think I am not a good person, just get lost. Someone used to tell me, I can't stay to please the whole world, if I please them, I wouldn't be happy myself.

So Carrie, tell yourself...Don't be affected by comments, just move on. If they tell u something that ruin your day, just look back, learn from it and move on. If u think they ruin your day, just forget about them.

I, being Carrie...Will make it one day. That one day is approaching.

First on my list for resolutions...I'm not a big fan of resolutions making, esp after all these years..
1) learn to save a little more each day even if it's a dollar.
2) get my degree (i hate repeating this, but this is the biggest hurdle in my life so far!!)
3) since im considered healthy, I will make sure I eat more fruits and less sugar and salt
4) be matured? well, Wayne thinks i'm immatured, which is bad.
5) study harder

I have no other resolutions..I hate to come up with more. So what if I did?

I had a bad day on the 2nd last day of December. But I will leave it behind in the year 2005.

merry xmas

2005-12-25T22:35:00.000+08:00

Meritius Mandarin was fantastic. Spent a wonderful xmas with darling for a weekend getaway at Meritius. We checked in after I worked on Sat. Good thing that there weren't many calls on Sat. I hope it will be the same in the next few days to come...

Oh well, i'm back at home resting after a yummilicious dinner (courtesy of my dad) at Jumbo restaurant. Had boiled prawns, shark's fins soup, snapper, broccoli + scallop, pepper crabs, fried rice + lettuce and chilled honeydew sago. Sounds good hur? but the portion is damn pweeny...I was full because I drank cup after cup of chinese tea. =p

Yesterday at Meritius, we went window shopping. But I ended shopping cos the xmas sales was just irresistable to miss. I bought a pair of Havaianas flip flops, lavender foam bath and instant mocha from Mark's & Spencer and a pair of 3 quarter pants from OP. The 3 quarter pants was awesome..trust me. Now I'm only waiting for my mulberry bag. I hope for an oak color. But if its grey so be it. =)

I shall list my new year resolution in the next few days. I have tot of a couple in the last few days...but couldn't really compile in my head. But I definitely have a higher expectation of myself and what I want and want to achieve in the Year 2006. Shall work towards my IT consultant job. I shall not dream of fast cars and luxury items...I want my degree and more money. And better character forming of myself.

Let me list to you what I might want in year 2006
1) Chloe Paddington bag (not really interested)

BACK FRONT
2) A Balenciaga bag
I'm thinking of how to spend my day tmrw...probably either study it away or just go shoot some pool and wrap my ipod video, give it a good foreskin..*sniggers*

Gosh...save up, save up...I want to go back to HK. HK HK HK...the next time i go back to HK, I will take more pictures with a vengence. I shall visit Disneyland and of course more places too...hopefully a fast walking female companion to accompany me. I hate tortoises and snails...

my ultimate fantasy at the moment:
To lie in an open-air jacuzzi sipping wine and a good self-improvement book facing the sea.

Right now...let's work on getting priorities right and doing them well. ;)

Merry Xmas!!

decided on mulberry

2005-12-24T22:55:00.000+08:00

I have kinda decided on a Mulberry bag. It looks awesome. Only thing now is....Red, Oak, White or Grey? I love Red on myself. Loud and screaming for attention. White looks demure but if it's on me...it might turn to white with black polka dots after a short while. =p Oak looks rich, very studious color and perfect for any outfit. Grey....Looks good on dark colors.

See, that's how indecisive I am. Oh ya, had a breakthrough yest night while studying. It teaches me that next time before I start to study, I should stuff myself with Belgian chocolates. I discovered that the breakthrough works for me at least. It was like wow...I just kept writing and writing...of course absorbing most of the points.

I shall celebrate Xmas today with that naughty boy. He's down with a fever. Poor thing...ask him don't walk in the rain, he happy happy go. This morning, for no apparent reason, just kept whining and whining...still can shout at me. ='( I almost kicked the whole toilet down.

Im feeling hungry again. And it's a good thing that there are not many calls today. =) =)

Merry Xmas!! and a Happy New Year!!

mulberry or balenciaga bags?

2005-12-21T11:35:00.000+08:00

It's midweek. Midweek blues? oh well, sorta. Everyone is in their merry mood this week...I mean second half of the week. As for me, im still catching up with my chapters. Hardly go on msn lately, no mood to talk or chat with anyone too. It's kinda demoralising to me. I just want to be in my own world - creating a better tmrw with lesser resources. That's how I define.."in my own world".

I haven't had time even to read my reader's digest lately and I just flipped through the newspaper. Pretty much the same Durai news and WTO-coudln't-come-with-a-conclusion kinda thing. I find the units that Im taking pretty interesting. It teaches me alot of things such as one chapter - Travelling abroad, conference meetings etc. I haven't got to there yet but just flipping thru the chapters feel good.

I was going thru the auctions today and I feel in love with two bags...Let's check out the advantages ya?

1) spacious
2) cheap as compared to the original $3.5k
3) it's stylish, celebrity style bags
4) it can be like a hand carry luggage
5) leather bags
6) the pockets are good, both in style and with the design

I can't state more...it's just too good. As for the price, I hope it could be lesser...=(

Amazing how bags can look nowadays. Simply awesome. Let me show u the other bag...

This is a limited edition Balenciaga bag. Almost every celebrity living in L.A has it. It costs $25k onwards up and it's only obtainable in Club21 in Singapore. I'm not acting rich..but I want something that looks good at a lower price (my motto)
I don't believe in paying more unless the quality is like LV, Dior that kind then bo bian, don't buy.

Oh yea, and the chloe bag that I purchased from a night market along Nathan Rd...let me show u how it looks like. It's a Chloe Silverado. Bleah...The picture doesn't want to load!

I shall show it to u someother time then. =)

Back to work.

I have been busy lately

2005-12-19T09:40:00.000+08:00

"....Just another manic monday"

Oh well, the calls are coming in fast and furious till I have no words to describe the incoming calls. It's a monday and Starhub promo started a few weeks earlier.

It's study week and I so wanted to get started with my damn assignments. Feeling down and not out yet because I always believe that everything is possible, only the extent of getting it done is different.

I get home, i sit down and I go into my train of thoughts. Not far from me on my table, there is this note that I scribbled a few days back.."Thoughts....Dreams....Reality" scribbled alongside a face that's very anxious of success.

It's monday...And the week is still young and im hungry for information to go into my head. I still dream of going back to HK every night. I hug Donald to sleep. I drift to a deep sleep without much of a nightmare. Just peaceful sleep. Even when my computer shuts down at 4am, I couldn't hear the logging off sound.

sighz..

2005-12-16T10:59:00.000+08:00

When baby starts to read this...he probably would blow his top again and starts to press the speed dial number on his phone. Sighz...I have to "show cause" again. Arghhh...Im feeling like a wave of depression just slapped me.

Arghh...Sighz. Am I really that goon du? Later the call will come and he will yada yada and say ...no, u are not goon du. You are just lazy and yada yada..=S I know..i know. What's wrong with me suddenly...how come such a thing can happen?

I'm feeling damn fedup now...like what they say in chinese - Jue Wang.

I am going mad. Really...at wit's end. Watever it is...Im still determined to complete this, to end this once and for all.

Kowloon...Here I come!!!!

2005-11-16T12:33:00.000+08:00

It's confirmed. I'm going to Hong Kong three days later. First 3 days, it's Kowloon and Kowloon. The next few days...it's DisneyLand in HongKong! Oh WOW!! hehe I'm so excited. Anyway, I am still trying to download the last 2 episode for Stairway to Heaven. Kinda difficult as nobody wants to come online. Grrr...

Oh yeah...I was glancing thru yahoo.com.sg the other day, it appears that Dawn Yang/Yeo is getting really "famous", just becos she was spotted thru her blog. She's really gorgeous, i mean every girl would want to be like her. Even I got attracted...I was reading her blog thru a fren's link. And I followed it. What looks weird was that ...when she posed with her family, there wasn't any significant similarities with her sibling (sis) or her parents. She's fair, eyes are huge, cheekbones like not there...defined jawline and so slim. It's like hmmmm....until I..or rather most Singaporeans found out that she went for plastic surgery..or rather what they claimed. Anyway, I think that you guys should stop bothering her. At least she got prettier after her surgery which I think is good, rather than looking like Micheal Jackson. O_o So what if she went for plastic surgery? it's her face right? she likes it the way she had it operated...so why else should others care? besides...she's going to carry her face around and why so should people bother about whether is it plastic? or operated on? or looks ugly before?...I guess some singaporeans really DO have alot of free time, esp guys. Full of critics, full of rubbish..They never think before writing out..just like those three bloggers who has to go to court because of what they did over the internet.

I am work now...feeling all restless and sleepy. Ever since I started watching STH, I slept at ard 130 to 2am in the morning. Cos I was packing my bag as well. No mood to sleep or read anything. *yawnz*

it's been quite awhile....

2005-11-13T10:31:00.000+08:00

I have been spending time with myself lately. I downloaded this korean drama that was showing on Channel U just a while back - Stairway to Heaven. I only downloaded "love so divine" and "lover's concerto" all my fav actors in there. I caught "He was cool" before those two movies. Kwon Sang Woo...is like WOW in stairway to heaven. The 20 parter..out of those 20, I cried like 7-8? =_=;; Esp 17,18,19 & 20. I even dug for tissue paper in my bag..u know the part where Jung Suh is already blind and she supposedly tot she was talking to her step brother Han Teah Hwa..But it was her childhood love instead. I was crying my eyeballs out man..Oh gosh! Same goes for Lover's Concerto. Damn..korean movies and dramas can be a real tear jerker at times ya? Apart from that..."he was cool" was damn funny...I watched thrice. How cool is that?

Haha..I'm not crazy about korean movies and dramas. Just watching them for entertainment. Besides I dun have a single mood to read a single page of magazine or a book. When I did it the other day, I yawned and slept terribly early.

Anyway, apart from that..I will be going to HONG KONG!!!!! WEEEEEEEE I can't wait. seriously...oh man..It's hong kong. My mum was just talking about her trips all over the world the other day..and she was talking about Hong Kong which she went in 1987. I think I still remembered. I was left at home in the care of my dad. And I have to look at my nasty sis, wailing her guts out. Watever..I can't wait to go there to shop!

Let's stop here, I am going to prepare a list of "what to get" and "what to bring" =) I'm so excited. Thanks baby! If it's not for u, we would still be at meritius mandarin spending christmas.

the day after exams..

2005-11-08T14:29:00.000+08:00

I just finished my exams yesterday. Feeling good and weird all in one. I really am praying hard to passed..yea..just passed and get it over and done with the exams. I am really feeling scared. It's not me that I will get worked up and scared over things like that. And when I want something to be done..it's done in two ways. Either do it properly and perfectly or just dun bother doing it. The other way would be if i am determined to get things done or anything that I want...I will put my heart and soul into it. Which is sooo not me..so pretty rare u get that kind of attitude from me.

Anyway, I finished my exams yest and like after a few hours after my exams, my heart was still like beating very fast..I went to visit my grandma after my paper. Went to Novena MRT to meet my cousin. We went dwn together to have dinner first then to visit my grandma. Stayed there with my grandma and uncle. We listened to our uncle's stories on his trip to Melbourne and China. Gross...In China, he said that there's this really huge drain and people just squat over it to shit..some can even read newspaper and shit at the same time. Goodness knows how much calf muscles they have =_=;;

Anyway, we stayed on till ard 9pm. After which, we went over to my uncle's house at moulmein road. It's just ard the skin center there. Pretty ok la the location. Just that his house is kinda messy..I think my room looks slightly neater than his..cos I mopped my floor every day and books are all kept away from sight. The only things I have available are....CDs, DVDs, Xbox, my laptop, bed and gadgets/hardware magazine and also reader's digest. All these must be within sight..the rest are per daily basis. Im reading a little on Time magazine. Courtesy of Jasper ..my colleague.

Blaaahhh...I'm back at work today and there are like tonnes of callsss...huge contrast from like 2 weeks ago. What the hell...These people arh, want to buy computer dunno how to use. goon doos!

Argghh watever. I can't wait to go back and watch desperate housewives and stiarway to heaven. =o)

grandma, here i am.

2005-11-05T00:08:00.000+08:00

My grandma was warded on my bday from what the doctor claimed was mild stroke. I guess she probably suffered from a blocked vein or something. Blocked veins restrict blood to your brains and it would affect your motor skills and also your speech. Well, I rushed down after my paper and I just felt kinda guilty for not visiting her for so long. At least I did and I accompanied 'her for like 6 hours straight, not leaving her bedside even to take a piss. =_+" Oh well, I tried talking to her. It's like a single way of conversation. Then I told her something that made her like "Arhhh Arhhhhhhh" similar to what she meant was Yaaaa...u know, good already! haha I said "why, u never see me for so long, u want to scold me right?"..I actually spoke to her in Cantonese. Good sign..at least my cantonese is improving too ;o)

It took quite awhile to get used to being so close to my grandma. I took her hand and held on and kept massaging it (it's so cold!) and her skin is like almost transparent in skin color. I can see the veins move side to side even!

A brief history of me and my grandma. She was born in China. She has an elder sister. They were not really close as in because of the poor family, my grandma was given away for money and also to seek a better life but my great grand mother vowed to get her back when she earned enuf. I heard this story from my mum many times...so Im narrating it out again. Well, after a few years, my great grandma and her elder sis came down to what Singapore was in the 50's - Nanking. Family reunited. Elder sister got jealous of younger sister. My grandma worked in a tobacco company so free cigarettes...why not? She started smoking at a very young age..say maybe 16 or younger still? Oh well...she has been smoking since then. And no matter how she tried to quit along the way...it's almost impossible. My grandfather managed to after smoking for many years. My grandfather is someone who is very strong minded, very determined, someone who has a bad temper too. I remember he whacked me with a feather duster...KNN!! it farking hurts lor. The stupid cane mark nvr gone off for like weeks!! I was a playful and mischevious girl...can't blame me. Bad genes I always claimed. Anyway, back to my grandma. 5 children ..4th child being my mum. yes, my maternal grandma..I wouldn't want to talk about my paternal side as my dad has waaaaay too many sister and I dunno who's who. Anyway, I seldom do my homework and I love fooling ard. I always love to play with my cousins and I'm the 2nd eldest from my maternal side. Pretty cool ah? your head aH!! I hate it when it comes to result comparing..That's really what I hate.

Anyway, back to hospital, I had some time alone with her..pretty rare but good since she can't really scold me or say anything loud enuf for the whole hospital to hear. There was this guy who was tending to dunno is it his dad or his brother...he kept on looking at me the moment he came in. So I turned my chair and faced the wall towards my grandma. Then I grabbed reader's digest to read so that I dun see his face. Then I kept on talking to my grandma, sometimes in cantonese so that she can probably get some full sentences out. I gave her my fingers to point like whether she was referring to my aunts/uncles or my sisters. Then she said something about my second sis not good, left for aussie without even saying goodbye. Arhhh that sis, full of nonsense. My aunts were like mad with her also...like I dunno what for. Watever..Anyway, I fed my grandma dinner toO! porridge with veg and fish. The fish sucks...the veg look horrible. But the patient still has to eat. I mixed the veg with the porridge and fed her. She ate up all!! Im pleased. hehe cos u know why? they claimed she doesn't finish up her food. But she did!! haha *halo appears*

I had my paper earlier this morning..pretty good I must say. One more to go after this paper and I'm FARKING FREEEEEEEEEEEE.....Can't stand exams. They really burn all the brain cells away. And I miss pool. Went to balaclava's yest with Wayne and his colleagues. Met them all for the first time. Very nice and frenly people. And also there's this guy from Apple Singapore. Oh well, heard he was a showoff and all. But I guess he tot that it's just normal that people should know that the glass of watever it was is $28. He gave us(wayne & me) quite an insight of his jobscope and he often flew to Silicon Valley, CA. And he's flying to Korea and Taiwan next. WoW..oh well...Looks like I still have a looooonnnnggg way...if I dun buck up, no such thing will happen for me ya. I think after my exams, must go down to visit my grandma again liao. Tues got to work. Phew!

Wish me luck for the last paper. I really need to pass this paper. And I'm damn tired now. Sleep.

Happy Birthday

2005-11-01T13:33:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to me. 24th yr on Earth.

Spending some time after several morning calls from Wayne. Had dinner with him yest at Outback!! recommendation of the guys at work. So sad to miss out their gathering at Outback 2 weeks back. The Steak was AWESOME. Juicy and full of yum! The waiters and waitresses there were all decked in halloween outfits..very nice atmosphere! If there's a chance, will bring my parents there to satisfy their canivourous appetites. *hehe* They will probably not leave the place... =_=;;

After dinner, we took a stroll down to Marina Square to check out it's new layout. *eeks* not nice...though it looks damn similar to City Link. But the shops are like *YawNz* Even Carl's Jr is more happening than the interior. So being the bored couple, we strolled out of that not-so-happening place to Esplanade for ICECREAM!!! shitz, getting fatter still having cravings for such sinful stuff. Worst, Esplanade has Haagen Dazs. And darling was full after eating icecream and not beef. Which goes the same for me since I couldn't finish my 3 scoops of icecream. I was like *buRpz* Darlin' had Midnight cookies & cream, Strawberry and Belgian chocolate..*WOW* sinful right? I had strawberry, Bailey's and choc choc chip!!! Yumz! The Bailey's ..eat already feel damn full. But it's nice though not alcoholic...else u'll have drunken kids walking out of haagen dazs. =p

After that...home sweet home.

I decided to catch a korean movie that I downloaded recently, just that didn't really have time to watch whatever i downloaded. It's a movie called "He was cool"..the lead actor being Song Seung Heon. He reminds me very much of a fren, Atomes. haha But the show was hiliarious. Romantic comedy. Something like "My tutor fren". Anyway, I would like to thank those who wished me yest...so happy.

My darlin, my poly frens-Anthony & Wendy, KH, KH's fren, Henry, Kelvin, KJ, Aze, Jasper, Saisoe, KC(same bday as me somemore), Adrian, my Aunt..and last of all, my dear parents!! =0) I'm so lucky to have u all. Thank you very much...k, having dinner later with my parents. Right now, I guess I have to continue mugging. *sighz* but oh well, I'm still pining for a spanking RX-8. I saw a CL 350 the other day...omg.. but on second tots, it looks abit like a Nissan Cefiro. =_=;; I saw the new Nissan Murano. OMG it's monsterous! and the owner changed the rims...it was like OMG! niceeee...But money is nicer. I wanted a Bally bag for my bday present. I saw it in a magazine and I fell in love with it. Some say my taste for things is really good when it comes to this...guess what? Darlin' and I went to Taka's Bally to check it out...it's a whooping $1414!! Gosh...I quickly slipped the tag back into the bag and just continued day dreaming. That bag is like OMG. Damn sleek and hollywood-ish.

Damn, I can't load that image of the $1414 bag...too expensive to be put up already -__-

Anyway, I'm going back to my notes and will be blog when im free or need to destress. =)

Moving on..

2005-10-27T17:52:00.000+08:00

I have washed my hands of that pile of shit..

Now moving on, I will embark on what's better for me and not look back on that road hump that I encounter just a couple of days back.

*smirks*

I must pass...and I will pass.

These few days shall determine..And back to the few points again.

1) FOCUS
2) determination
3) consistency
4) time management
5) goal/aim

After exams..I will be 24yrs old. I'm getting older and my achievements are getting lesser by the days.

I ran a fever this morning, my body was hot and I was feeling giddy..I was worried. So I tried sleeping it away. Bad choice. Should have just ate panadol. But watever, since Im visiting the doc later, might as well. Think I was too stressed already...Im lousy at stress management. I only love to enjoy and dunno how to handle stress. *bleahz*

kk, im going back to my studies now..Ciaoz!

Battle of the middle earth

2005-10-22T15:07:00.000+08:00

This is not against our skin contigent, it's about promoting togetherness and mutual trust in a working environment..

Battle of the "Middle Earth" has begun...

As the saying goes, stepping on all kinds of tails...BUT never ever step on a scorpion's tail.

This has gotta teach that son of a bitch a lesson. I have not said anything yet. And out of the 4 scorpions he stepped, 2 have already stung. I was a hurt scorpion yesterday. I wept miserably and pathetically at my badly stepped tail. I have gathered enough sympathy to mend my tail. Now I am back with lethal venom to sting HARD

Note: This is never a talk about childishness, never a talk of backstabbing, never a talk of complaining, this is about not getting your FACTS right.

Annual meeting is on this afternoon, I have just finished my meeting and filled my stomach with Californian pizza and buffalo wings courtesy from our assistant manager. He's always generous when it comes to food and celebration. *shrugs* he takes care of us really well. He invites us to give feedbacks, comments, complains and now he even gives us our own personal mail. I respect him alot especially after a talk when he first joined us. He advised me on certain things which really changed my aspects in terms of working, studying and my views on him.

1) professionalism (work wise)
2) focus
3) putting in effort in everything u do (aims,goals)

But I realised he has like really impromptu "excuses" whenever we have something to complain, feedback and all..Which is also admirable. Why so? because he knows his stuff well! .. Looks like I have a loooooooooooooooong way to get to where he is. Especially the MCs that i'm gathering lately, but there's a reason in watever I'm doing. I can't bear to leave my colleagues fighting the 'phone war' so no matter what, I will make an effort to be at work on the more important days of the week.

Anyway, as for that tail stepper, WE shall determine his time here. Whether he wants to go back up North permanently..he better knows how to treat us with care! Heard of "tender, loving care", have you? Well, scorpions love that alot. And not people stepping on their beloved tails..

backstabber on the prowl

2005-10-21T11:07:00.000+08:00

Warning - He who say things that are not true, will be punished.
Note - black cat being a certain character

It's a fine morning, a day with lesser calls and generally .. i'm in a good mood after all the revision I did last night. I was reading my part II notes at work when suddenly a black cat pounces on me.

I was called up to "discuss" about a certain something. Topics stated below..

1) Not happy with black cat taking food from me (without asking)
2) Say that Im also not happy with him and grumble to others that he made me photocopy notes.
3) Claimed that I am supposed to help a buddy and not do this to him.
4) Said that I condemn him? Said I said bad things about him..to others?

Hmm...I wonder when I did so. Im caught in office politics. Just when I was considering staying on for long term basis, this kind of thing must always crop up. I wonder .. I really wonder, how humans can be like animals. So hostile..the feelings they gather like jealousy, anger, selfishness...are like on an account of others. Is this what you are brought up to be?

Well, it's not the point. When the government is empathizing on racial issues, these people must cause more problems to it. I'm still feeling very "not satisfied" about the whole issue. Like the whole thing is my fault? Is that what u are trying to mean?

Whichever motherfucker u are..u be careful, I won't let u off!

updated news

Seems like there's no motherfucker who said anything..it seems like the black cat is implying that someone else in my group is instigating us..*hmm*

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*yawnz* this is a childish gameplay, even burnout:revenge is more exciting...and every guy knows better not to play around with a scorpio girl, for his ass will be kicked REAL HARD..

Seems like some black cat understands cheena stuff too. And why so should I care? u broke this frenship that we once had..the "buddyhood". U cut it off yourself.
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Well, watever it is..u wan gameplay, i shall play AFTER my exams k? u take my energy now..u will pay dearly for it. Come step my tail...don't waste time, I will make sure cats doesn't have tails.

boucing around..

2005-10-18T10:08:00.000+08:00

I have not been blogging much as usual. I was caught up...so caught up with my assignments last week. I enjoyed my hearts out marking the end of them all. Played pool at parkway as usual. I miss Starbucks...somehow or another.

I miss those times when I chilled out in Starbucks doing my revision and flipping my notes. sighz...coming back to the topic of studies..

I wish I didn't meet that bastard..I would have gone to Aussie. Maybe I still have that one time of experience from another country. *sob sob* I have been feeling sore about it for four years now. *sighz* But at least I have baby wayne. *giggles*

Never mind, back to where we were...

I have loads of revision to do lately. Haven't been revising much the last few weeks..so now I have to be good and revise.

Thunderstorms...

2005-10-02T19:17:00.000+08:00

I love rainy, stormy days (only when i'm at home of course)...Why so?

Because I can absorb more when I'm studying. I found out when I was studying during one stormy night. Better still if u have a lamp..Better environment to study.

I'm currently busy with my stupid assignments. High time to get started on revision for my exams. Else u will see a live fish outta water in a month's time.

Im still looking for a new revamp for my other web blog.

im lousy at pool...that's it.

2005-09-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

Yeah, I came here mainly to blog that I'm lousy at pool. At least my own bf confirmed that for me. I don't care if it's sexist or watever sort. I just can't care less..how else can someone who plays pool/billards for 4 years be anywhere worse than me? *shrugs*

But since well..I'm so lousy. Think I need to go and play on my own, how else would an expert want to play with a newbie like me? Besides, I believe in my own style and am stubborn. No amount of Jennette and Steve Davis can bring my pool to those expert's standard anyway. SO I should just SHUT UP and stop complaining.

After an evening of reading a little TIME magazine after my colleague passed me the recent week's issues. I'm so happy that it contained what I wanted to read about - Hurricane Rita/Katrina & Ipod Nano. But I tried containing myself and just read only when Im having my dinner. No more reading TIME after dinner. Just course books...course books that are written by people who studied the course for us to study. Not really profound but the amount of understanding and focus u have to put in is just too much sometimes. Esp when I get cravings for pool and want to watch movies.

Never mind..no matter how stupid I can get, I will still use that opportunity to learn..To be better. It's just pool what...how difficult can it can? Same goes to studying..study only needs more focus and time wat. Difficult? what u think? Time will tell. I can be idiotic sometimes..same as being stubborn. It difficult to eat the humble pie sometimes..esp after all the effort and blood in your work. Watever la...nobody understands anyway. fark

mass stomach destruction

2005-09-21T21:05:00.000+08:00

*coughs*

With me having stomachache since last thurs is no joke. I don't wish to elaborate anyway. After increased restrictions from our efficient government..I dare not sprout any racial comments here for fear that I might be scribbling my comments with blood on walls instead of tapping on my notebook keyboard.

I am on MC...again. This time well, due to the above. I know the number of MCs are increasing. I had no other way but to use it to study for my upcoming exams as well. Im going thru my assignments and just trying to finish them up before I just crash straight for the revision.

I just got in contact with a sec skool mate of mine, Jeremy Tan. Haha he reminds me of a punk. No idea why..in sec skool, he's just sooo punkish and quiet sometimes. It's good to keep in touch with them sometimes..u just know that you are not the only one existing and it keeps u in pace with everyone. Maybe even set challenges for yourself.

I suddenly see the need to have more clothes. I find myself getting more and more boring. Boring to the sense of seeing myself with the same set of clothes again..and again...and AGAIN! wtf

I better get back to my assignments. Hope my stomach is sane now. And pool...i can't wait for pool this fri. Think Adrian is bringing some chick from dunno where down. Hope she dun trash me for nuts...I might just decide to hibernate. I miss my xbox..and my dungeon siege is with a colleague. No mood for games now...my head is spinning. arghh assignments...Oh assignments. *focus* im getting abit hysterical here..it isn't really that bad actually. I just am not looking at my assignments that's y. *doh*

helpless helpdesk agent

2005-09-15T09:37:00.000+08:00

I didn't go to work yesterday..and I was like wearing my shirt halfway and just didn't have the mood to go even a few steps. braaahhh..my head was throbbing madly and my eyes detest on opening.

I called darling to say I wasn't going to work. He, being sweet as always, suggested something good. He suggested that I drop by McDonald's for their breakfast. O_O how sinful. But I went anyway..I had breakfast and read newspaper. I went to see a doctor and I went to shop for some supplements. Got Gingko Biloba and some blood cleanser supplements. I need Gingko since my exams are coming and I feel that it will be good to have those.

I went to NTUC thereafter to get tomatoes. Damn sweet and nice! Wanted to get cornflakes but watever..Should just get it tmrw instead. Which is today..

Went home and watched Wet Dreams 1 - Korean movie. After recommendation from both Khian Hong and Henry..I dunno what's so funny. I think Wet Dreams II better. Except that guy damn funny...kept on farting when he's aroused! *wahaha*

Then took a nap and woke up ard 6pm. Watched My Tutor Fren this time. Hmm got quite alright cute korean guy..except for the fact that their eyes nvr opened bigger than 1cm. =_= Decided that I had enuf of leaving my msn on and watching movies. Scrambled out of bed to do my revision. -_-;; Although it's slow but at least I started..*shrugs*

I had a schedule worked out for tonight: -
1) Go thru the objectives for both assignments CIS2000 & CIS2005
2) Throw away empty mineral bottles in my room (which I have done so)
3) Magazines put one side after reading (I have tonnes of magazines!!! O_O

comex it fair again...

2005-09-01T15:00:00.000+08:00

Comex is here again! Well, to me..It only indicates more calls in the coming weeks and I really hope people who are knowledgable in computers purchase HP/Compaq computers. Stop calling and asking ridiculous questions like how to burn a cd or how to do a backup..better still, ask "what is a backup"? *slam head on table*

Second, it indicates that I should drop by to get my photo printer all-in-one. :) :) Then I wan to subscribe to CHIP magazine..or maybe STUFF. See how...I am looking for some ipod accessories too. Nowadays are spent trying to finish up my last two assignments. First being two reports and second being my analysis and design assignment.

As I look at my HP calendar..I am left with two full months to work on my exams. No issue apparently..I only have to pray for one thing - > I have the motivation & energy to study. I would sit and read for awhile..the next thing u know...I will be snoozing. Zzzz

I just went to color my hair and trim my hair :) :) I stayed 4 hours in the hair saloon..Slept like so many times. Sleepy...I wan to play pool again. Maybe play some billiards. Drinking session at paulanders. Snoozing on my bed...luxury! But alas...Still have to work on Sat. *dreads* And I'm looking for Dungeon Siege 2 desperately. Hmm seems like nobody is interested in Dungeon siege at all nowadays...everyone only plays warcraft and more warcraft =p

cold cold day..

2005-08-23T15:46:00.000+08:00

I finally had time for myself (after that darn MCSE paper)..I finished reading my Half-Blood Prince yest. I think I should finish reading my text book before reading any other book else sure die..

My beloved Xbox finally returned to my side but I have yet to set it up. =p busy with assignments lar..I need an interval of 5-10mins rest for every 15 mins I try to concentrate. =O

I was trying to look for my Dungeon Siege game...Dunno where I put it. I can find Grandia but I really want to play Dungeon Siege again. *damn*..nvrm, still I must read my textbook first. right? kk...

As I was saying...Burnout has another series out on demo on xbox - Burnout Revenge! But I tink I would resort to downloading it in the end :p

books books books

2005-08-17T22:56:00.000+08:00

I dug out a whole box of my cds just recently and I can feel part of me complete with it. Some are scribbled with signatures from the band/singers themselves. Before inet came to my life, I purchased cds and popped them in my mini phillips hifi (which I passed on to my sister now) and listen to them while I do my homework or revision. It started since Sec 1 (cassettes are the trend then)..then it upgraded to cds. Part of my school allowance would go to that and I have no idea why..I would stinch and save just to buy magazines and cds. I can memorise any song that is put in my face even japanese songs (arashi, smap etc) and I am an ardent fan of aaron kwok (till 1998) and I listen to my parent's old bee gees, cliff richard and some other oldies cassette. :) Even old mando pop songs..dunno why my mandarin often get last in class even after listening to so much mandarin songs.

I'm now in my room listening to one of my old Smap(japanese band) records while reading on TCP/IP and it's related stuff. sianz...bo pian.

Feeling sleepy even after all the tea I have drunk. I went to see a doctor today. The doctor seems to be suffering from Parkinson's Disease and he's like so old..AND the best thing is he refused to give me 2 days MC! nbcb...still charge me $18 for just MC and no medicine. I was so tempted to go out of the clinic but dunno why my stupid limbs just stuck on the ground. Sianz..tmrw have to go back to my usual clinic to get my MC. :p

counting the days

2005-08-05T10:00:00.000+08:00

Finally got myself in relax mode all over again....Practically after my 70-291 exam, i was in holiday mood and just chill my weekend till now..the thing is that it's without my xbox. I kinda miss the games on my xbox....baby!!! PS3 k? keke

I hardly have time to really chill out...One thing for sure that I must do is, to format my lappie. My lappie startup that time have like a laggy window sound .. imagine the lagging sound when it starts up...gosh! Even I feel embarassed to hear it.

Lately, I couldn't think of any gadgets to purchase and no phones has taken my fancy other than my sexy and awesome N6260. I always believe in watever I purchase..of course, I do make a few bad purchases but I will have my consultant wayne to weigh out different priorities for me too..no choice, since he follows whenever im shopping.

It's the 5 Aug already..seems fast! I have been working ard a yr in HP. Still weighing out if I should stay on or wait till I finish my uni. *persevere* Still have that MCSA thingy...*phew* now Im thinking of taking MCDST too since that sounds more feasible in my resume.

two different personalities

2005-07-25T15:28:00.000+08:00

Something that I have often noticed for like the longest time..on my journey to work every morning, I tend to people watch instead of reading my notes cos I will still feel sleepy in the train. So sometimes as I walked to take a train, I will be surrounded by tonnes and tonnes of women ranging from ages 20-55.

I will get so frustrated on my way to work for several reasons..let me tell u why: -

1) they walk so slowly (can't blame some of them esp those on heels)
2) they block your way on escalator
3) they just suddenly push their way thru to enter the train when they are actually at the back..oh c'mon, no seats still push. morons lah..
4) they stand at awkward positions, like we normally stand sideways (to prevent ourself from falling down) but these dumb mules would stand the other way and take up so much space and best thing is they lean on the handles. Sometimes, I think donkeys are smarter..
5) they stare at u like u are some juvenile
6) worst case scenario - those with heels, when the train jerks, they accidentally step on u and u are wearing sandals -_-;; PAIN ARH!!! KNN..i kenna that twice liao..I made a hoo haa even though it's not so painful, i get the 'kick' just to make her guilty.
7) even worst case scenario - B.O (body odour)...that scenario would be the worst!

and nowadays, whenever u noticed a lady with nice long flowing hair and figure or maybe someone who has really nice side view..BUT horrors of all horrors, when they actually turn around....*puke* even i as a girl would puke...can u imagine?

ipod

2005-07-20T12:00:00.000+08:00

I finally got my ipod but just too lazy to blog about it.

I have been trying to explore around in iTunes...kewl but it takes kinda long time to load up my songs lah..dunno is it becos it's 12.80Gb of it or is it really sloooooow.

Hopefully when mr dinosaur (wayne) starts work, he can buy an ipod as well. :o)

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Calls nowadays are terrible lah. it goes to show Singaporeans buy branded computers are idiots. What do u think? Some can ask me, that little arrows below the icons on the desktops, how come like that arh? ...... -_-;; basket lah!! never heard of short cut keys before arh? TMD...

one of the shots I shot at scarlet recently...loved it to bits! There are more but just am too lazy to edit it due to my hectic schedules..

work, study, work, study

2005-07-09T12:20:00.000+08:00

It's not about struggling with studies sometimes that make u mad with yourself. It's the getting yourself to sit down and really start to study that really makes me go mad.

I can't sit still for long and I will feel sleepy after a mere 10mins (max). It's sounds terrible...I think I need to come up with some plan to make myself just think of the good things and just prevent myself from looking at the dark side.

Time passes very fast..don't u think so?

dog found

2005-06-28T17:30:00.000+08:00

My dog was 'found' or rather given back to us at 1 pm as of yesterday. So I decided since this (dog running away) is happening so often, I decided to make my way down to Plaza Singapura to make a dog tag for that fellow. Naughty fellow.

Anyway..When I got home yest, my mum was telling me something damn funny (at least to me)..

She said when she got home, my dog was so scared and excited at the same time, so he hid behind the sliding door waiting for my mum to enter through. Then he just couldn't contain his excitement and just pounced on my mum and just kept on jumping up and down to get my mum's attention.

After that, my mum went for shower and he followed waiting quietly outside. After which, my mum came down to watch tv..then suddenly dunno why, the dog felt like my mum was neglecting him or something..you know what he did? he actually cried according to my mum. His eyes were all red and when my mum hugged him, he actually looked away with all the tears and all. *gosh*

Then my mum sayang-ed him for awhile to calm him down..lolz, later I went over to disturb him with the missing dog notice. I kept pointing at it then pointing at him to indicate that it's him. Then started scolding him for running away..then point to the gate. Guess wat? ....during that later part when i point to the gate and scold him..he kept on looking away and blinking his eyes more..then he cried again. Tears really flowed out leh! *gawd*!!! Then I picked him up and hugged him..lolz

This morning, he was waiting outside my door probably becos of the aircon and all. lolz then I opened the door and let him sleep inside while I washed up. He slept happily..lolz should upload some pics of him.

my dog went missing...

2005-06-26T23:52:00.000+08:00

I went out today in the afternoon to east coast with my baby for a walk. Wanted to go out earlier but the weather is like kinda overcast and Im feeling down toO.

Before I left my house, I gave my dog a little ruffle and patted his head. Who knows it's gonna be that last ruffle and pat. That goddamn dog disappeared at my dad's school after chasing a fucking cat...and disappeared in the vincity of SENG KANG! THOSE WHO FOUND HIM BETTER RETURN OR I FUCKING CURSE YOUR SKIN TO ROT! (*&#(#^%

Sighz, think im feeling affected that the other baby is not by my side. *sobz*

Well, back to east coast..Had early dinner there and then left for parkway. Played pool and was damn freaking lousy at pool today. I feel like a loser today. Sighz...guess I suddenly felt all stressed up again. I hate to face stress head on. Im worried about my degree. Damn scared and all. I dare not say it out scared got nagged again by baby..sighz...I sometimes feel like it's kinda torturous. But without this kind of challenges...it's not life also. Nothing to reflect back.

"Life is a matter of perceptions"

I really don't know what tomorrow has in store for me...no one knows. I admit Im afraid to face challenges partly because Im afraid of failures. No one really understands what Im trying to say anyway...and I'm just freaking stubborn to listen or give in. I don't know why myself.

Whenever i confine or just grumble to someone, I didn't expect that someone to give me advice .. Cos I jolly well know myself that Im either too thick skinned or stubborn to listen.

I don't feel like going for lessons tmrw...and I think Justin will kill me for that. Definitely. Len will probably follow suit cos he's smart and probably can swallow up every single page on the book..not sure how he does that though.

Sighz..I really AM afraid to face things straight in the face..why arh? And I dunno why instead of sleeping, Im ranting about this loser behaviour of mine here at like 142am. Ya..took me so long to type out this blog cos in between, I was talking to baby over the phone and listening to him nag and make sure I get my stuff done and not procastinate. Sighz...I'm really naughty. Good thing, cane don't exist now for me...*phew* I soooo hate them! And now the only thing that is in my head - > IPOD. I wonder what happen to the $500+ deal during the weekend...now that Im thinking of it..I guess my mood change is caused by that as well. *nods*....no wonder! see....sighz..gadgets can change your life to this extend. Die...and when baby reads this, he probably starts making alot of noise again.

No no...I better start saving. My pay is coming...and I can foresee MCs coming unless a public holiday is near..and the earliest? Fucking National Day. Why can't there be a week holiday for National Day? sickening...work work work....machiam Singapore will be a bigger place to live in the next day. We are not fucking bangladash also...even they own good handphones! Sianz...Im ranting on good nothings. Guess sleep can shut my mouth up..XBOXING FIRST. *sniggers*

SQL failed to debug

2005-06-26T00:03:00.000+08:00

Sighz, Im sucha failure sometimes. I wonder what went wrong this time? I did study but probably as what baby said - NOT HARD ENUF? grrrr....3rd time SQL! what the fuck...to think that some say it's the easiest paper of all 7?....

Anyway, went to JB today for my test and got what I wanted. Reader's Digest and also McDonald's milkshake. *burpz* Wanted to look around for games but just didn't have the mood also. Sighz..SQL.

After a long jam at the bloody causeway, my temper just increased and to think that where ever im walking, there must be some blind bastard knocking into me at intervals. At one point in time, I almost wanted to hurl a bunch of vulgarities over at a man who knocked his fucking shoulders right into mine that I can hear a punch sound. Gosh..is he that blind or was that one purpose? goddammit..he didn't mutter a word of apology. I would have killed him if he dare say it's my fault. Anyway, I was just in lousy mood after that. Max and I didn't make it..Justin finally did. Sighz.

I guess I can blame no one for this right? I strongly believed I could have pass but I still wonder why I didn't make it. When I checked the answers, it's all correct somemore. Weird.

Anyway, as I was saying, went to have lunch with baby at gardens and then we came back to my home. He continue his never ending relationship with Winning Eleven and I looked out for juicy offers on auctions and read blogs. After that, we bought caught 'Unleashed' on my lappy. It's really good...DivX format and the movie nice..lotsa actions and emotions. After the movie, two sleepy pigs start to evolve. Snored our way to lala-land for three hours before waking up and have dinner at Chomp Chomp. Had Chwee Kueh (6 of it), 3 chicken wings, char kway teow (he) and desserts - egg beancurd with bubbles and chin chow with nata de coco (he) ..no wonder he was grumbling about his waist line..*now I understand why*

不值得

2005-06-08T10:42:00.000+08:00

不值得
梦飞船

除了想你除了爱你
hu ~ 我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记整理心情
hu ~ 我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心
无力继续
这感情不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你
除了想你除了爱你
hu ~ 我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记打开心情
hu ~ 我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心
无力继续
这感情不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心
不为你而放弃爱情
不为你而毁了心
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你

I have been listening to this song everyday, it's so nice...

It's work as usual again today, I had a hard time trying to wake up and it's like overcasted weather and all. The weather is just so fantastic to laze in bed.
I overslept as usual cos I was held back in la la land. When I awoke, I literally jumped out of bed..and haiz! Comfort Delgro must be earning quite alot from me lately..considering the frequency of me flagging them down.

My laptop is still very disobedient. I should format it. Worse, I found out that it is in FAt32 format.

hate leads to suffering

2005-06-08T00:25:00.000+08:00

*sighz*

After a week of 'shopping' for gadgets, suddenly everything doesn't seems right.

Items I bought: -

1) Acer Laptop (which doesn't seems to want to do windows update! and using Home Edn XP)
2) Casio Exilim Camera P505
3) Philippe S+ark mouse (my desktop mouse doesn't seems like it's working! but this mouse is for laptop...)
4) I dunno what else I bought seriously..but I love them all.

Well, knowing that I am notoriously known for my untidiness (for a reason) and also very aware of things that are missing or spoilt..Guess wat happened these 3 days?

1) my mp3 player was wrecked when I was about to unplugged it out from the system, my colleague Justin(no, im not blaming anyone here, just my luck) kicked it accidentally and it spoilt the whole USB system. Just like that..USB Mp3 player spoilt. *devastated* Good thing I still have my Zen Micro. Blah...but that's not the point.

2) my army camo pair of converse shoes went missing yesterday mysteriously even though I saw it in the morning! Strange or what?

3) my printer suddenly went inkless even though it was printing fine just last weekend. I even have to do my own nozzle cleaning....O_o; PLUS I VOW NEVER TO WORK IN A PRINTER SUPPORT CENTER

4) my dad bought a bicycle just sometime last year and today..it went missing toO! No one used it! that's the best thing....So? Ghost? Thiefs? or what?

So the best thing that my sis can offer 'support' is to park conveniently long at my desktop. I just feel like I want to lock up my whole room and compress it and stuff it in the wall so that it doesn't exists in this house till i come back. Not that I'm selfish or cruel but time is a factor to me and she must be taking up my whole table. goddamnit...

I guess I have to stop shopping for now, else something is probably going to happen next.

SQL failed twice .. I can't believe it! my gawd...and it's not just me? my two other colleagues as well. That's seriously something wrong...So saddening.

I really feel like doing kick boxing now...not Xboxing though. I need something extreme. *blah* I can't 'do fresh air' now just when i need it. *ARGGGHHH* godammnit..

anger leads to hate..

2005-06-04T00:40:00.000+08:00

Prejudice, hatred, biased-ness, discrimination...

I had to swallow all traces of pride ...for?

To get back trusted funds that is entitled to me..only hurdle is, have to go thru 2 hags to get it. I wouldn't say my ego is big but my pride is still standing in one piece and any small particular insult that the 2 hags are capable of shooting can shatter that 'one piece' of pride.

I have to go thru one as middle 'man' cos talking to the younger hag = wild spit, sarcastism level 8, rude, no respect for humans except for herself..and talking to her? I rather talk to the walls. At least the wall remain silent and not so abusive.

You know what the young hag can tell me? Because of u, I just had dinner (at 8pm only) and now Im finding a parking space to transfer your bloody god damn money to your account..O_o;; *must she say this? is there a need to say till like that? hmm plus at that time, I didn't have my dinner lor! if not for the money, I would have called my satanic partner in crime to throw back a string of vulgarities for her to hear. b!tch!

If Im not related, I would give a damn sh!t about u lor...so wad if u are NUS grad? SOOOO? big arh? pile of shitte! I don't give a damn to your fuckshit face man...

nvrm..I shall just tolerate. what's more, my mum can tolerate..why can't i? I can't lose my cool just becos of something classifed as 'minor'. Wadever..I slept for an hour and a half before the second wave hit me. My sis came in and pestered me to log in the computer for her to use. AND me being a light sleeper couldn't tolerate the tapping of keyboard sound...woke up and continued studying for my SQL. Talk about own room...see all the shit u get in the process? *sighz* siblings...

These days...

2005-06-03T11:02:00.000+08:00

Wooo...2 wonderful days of MC.

- downloading loads of torrents
- sleeping my full 8 hours
- listening to my newly downloaded songs

I'm back at work at work today. After my breakfast, I felt sleepy already. When I woke up this morning, it's like jam-packed in the MRT. With all the kiddy kids ard, trains machiam damn packed like that.

OoOoOo..PC show 2005! Expo! I am eyeing 2 gadgets. My main spending of the year: -

Camera - Casio Exilim P505

Notebook - Acer Aspire 1692WLmi

I might want to look at the mp3 player side but baby sure make alot of noise again..as usual =p say it's unnecessary spending and all that...blah blah.

Anyway, it's great SINGAPORE sales toO! It's time to shop happily...for 2 whole happy months. But as for me, so long as I get the laptop...it's the biggest pressie I can ever get. Oh ya, I better go and enrol for my uni, else no need to study ler. =p

deep in thoughts

2005-05-29T00:19:00.000+08:00

It's been a whole week of slack and pool sessions.

It's a Sat and Wayne is packing his stuff for his last night in hall(hostel) tonight. Kinda sad but well, memories will remain.

Went to work this morning, surprisingly early! lolz Well, I picked up quite a number of calls and just slack it off the last few minutes. Think it mostly depends on my mood. Well, milo and mee hoon. *slurps*

After that, we went in a big group (Justin, Sai Soe, Henry, Raj, Leo, Julie and me) to play pool and just got stuck there for like 3-4 hours. After that is like Subway for lunch. Damn freaking hungry man....*fish* If not for the breakfast just now, I would have been crawling out of snookerium at that time.

Anyway, after that headed back to hall. Knocked out on the bus and slept like a piece of log. Damn tired..so tired that I dropped my cup of ice tea on the floor of the bus. =p good thing it didn't spill.

After a 'nap' when we got back, we bought white wine - Beringer (white zefindel). Chilling out to some lounge music that Pei burnt for me. Then now it has been changed to JJ Lin. *yawnz* never mind..back to wine, dai dee and maybe some talk cock session to celebrate my baby's last day/night at hall.

weekend frenzy

2005-05-07T12:02:00.000+08:00

Work was alright, quite a number of calls. I just simply hate it when there are like loads of computer morons who are geek wannabes. Call us to chit chat, to get more information outta us and they suddenly think they became smarter that kind of thing.

After that, went to Harbourfront for dinner and took a long bus ride to Jurong East. Went for a game of pool @ KPooL. Went there with Wayne and got bored after awhile. Went to NTUC, bought 4 bottles of booze (Carlsberg) + 2 packets of salted peanuts + cg. Well, anyway took a cab back to NTU. Then see the guys striked each other out in Tom Clancy's Rainbow 6 - or is it some Ravenshield game =p watever it is...Anyway, I just stoned on the bed till the rest of the guys got back. Decided to play Dai Dee and anyone who lost, drink a mouthful...drank up all 4 bottles in a period of 2 hours then after that, we went to 'breathe' some air. =p After that second round of Dai Dee, we had Remy Martin...awesome man! Remy Martin damn shiok.

By 3am, Derrick and Desmond went back to their rooms and Nick went to join his gf. I showered and slept like a dead log thereafter. That feeling of going high is just peaceful and undisturbed.

Woke up the next day after many pushes from Wayne. Sianz...Still have to go to work.

After that Sim Lim, Peninsula and POOL! pool pool pool....I'm a n00b at it..

boredom is within yourself..

2005-05-04T22:02:00.000+08:00

boredom silently crept up on my two nights ago. it's the kind of emptiness that strips happiness off u and leave u barenaked without a soul.

Im only happy with wayne ard...but even he has that distracted and distant expression. Like his soul is somewhere else and I'm standing beside the body only. But can't blame him also..besides, he's done with his exams. Soccer and game revolves ard him now..I shall seek peace and solace in my xbox. *prays*

craving..wants, needs. sometimes I try to distract, sometimes i try to turn my attention to a new gadget, a new device. sometimes..it's plain boring. I can't sleep properly these days. I wake up many times at night not only to adjust my pillow, but also check the time and all. It's quite scary to think of this as well.

I want to seek peace in myself. I have a confused me within myself. I want it outta me..just thinking of positive things. Focus. I can't even think straight now.

high and dry

2005-05-02T11:55:00.000+08:00

Played Xbox whole day today with Wayne. Games from Burnout 3, Dungeons & Dragons, Winning Eleven 8 all the way to Tony Hawk Underground 2 and True Ground - Streets of LA. I sat there and halftime just started to modify this blog layout. Got abit bored after awhile cos of all the HTML editing and all.

Plus it was so hot outside, my block of ice that I threw out literally disappeared at my next glance. My mood was also ruined by the weather. Humid and pimples are appearing on my face. grrr

Anyway, after playing Burnout 3, went out to have dinner. Prata and thosai again..looks like ghee is going around in my bloodstream. Wayne and I then sat down and started crapping about my paper thosai..hehe

Decided to send him back to the bus stop..then ended up smoking two sticks. Didn't cough at all but ended up smoking sucking up everything =p Sighz..Anyway, I felt so smelly after that! Went home and showered and brushed my pearly whites. Ironed my stupid clothes...ended up so sweaty! ArgggghhhhHhhhhhhhh I hate IRONING! Nevermind, time for more retail tmrw...*sniggers*

k k, back to my final game on xbox before I sleep...else tmrw got to do the ninja style again. farking irritating...late abit like never come like that. Niao till like that...!

JB getaway trip

2005-05-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 10am considering I slept at around 4am the night before. Chatting on msn and also playing my xbox. Nothing much to do considering that I'm awaiting the JB trip in the afternoon. hehe Slacked for awhile and just sat there and day dreamt.

Met up with Wayne and we buzzed off to Woodlands - Causeway Point. Farking hungry by then and just wanted to eat something of a huge portion. But was waiting for his fren - Derrick. Walked around and window shopped while waiting for the rest of the guys to reach the woodlands checkpoint. After walking awhile, we went down to woodlands checkpoint and by then, the sky is already dark, really dark as in looking like Doom's Day.

It started pouring after and we reached Woodlands Checkpoint and took a bus down to JB. Got stuck at customs cos the farking queue is so long....It took us almost an hourjust to get our freaking passports stamped and I had to like wear a cap to cut queue. Finally got across amd still got caught in the rain cos of the unsheltered areas...Malaysia damn ti bo leh!! Put abit of shelters also niao! ...End up 4 of us are all drenched cos we are singaporeans. The other 4 msianz got in earlier and have already shopped half of the mall already =.="

Anyway, the guys wanted to sing karaoke and have seafood. But my main aim - xbox games. Got like 10 of the latest games. muahaha...now testing the games to make sure it works. My 'cousin' Sean who was there too..got like 11! Then after raiding thru the game shop, we went back to City Square to check out the karaoke and stuff. Boring la, found out that it was too expensive then we went to have seafood instead. Took a cab down to the place costs us around 15 ringgit.

Finally got there, ate like 4 crabs (for 8 people, one vegetarian), 2 plates of vegetables, tau fu, Fish(with tomyum), man tou and also prawnz ermm with nestum. =S amazingly, it taste good! All in all, the whole meal costs $350 for 8 people. Kinda expensive. Bought magazine and reader's digest. After that, we braved the stupid queues again and finally got back to Singapore.

Sticky and tired...Hailed a cab. *yawnz* got home, had a shower and switched on computer for awhile. So bored till end up sleeping. So got fed up and just switched off my computer. Slept at the edge of the bed...it's only 1130pm for gawd's sake. Then I didn't even realised that I switched off the lights and finally got to bed. =] Tired.....

start of this 'unofficial' blog

2005-04-30T11:45:00.000+08:00

This is a start of a new unofficial blog. My official blog is private and confidential...This is a better space for me to bum around and talk something not so stressful.

Anyway, just had a fantastic week. I'm a Microsoft Certified Professional (MCP) now. Had the same score as Justin again. haha Basically, my whole week was great except for some work problems. Other than that, it was bloody coooooool!

After my MCP, I went for window shopping with J at Wisma. Forever 21 is soo boring. I saw those swanky pairs of 35th Adidas Anniversary shoes at TOPSHOP! awwmaagawwwwd!! farking nice...damn!
Never mind, went down to have nasi lemak at Holland V. As usual, the auntie thinks she is selling golden rice..so ex! I was clad only in Adidas shirt and Zara pants..alamak, and W said that I might feel outta place with that outfit. And J said that he went in cladded only in berms and some shirt. Never mind...who cares. It's Carrie going to Wala Wala. Shall be something new for everyone.

Anyway, we ordered Edinger and Kilkenny's. Was with the usual gang - Giles aka Unkle Giles, Wayne aka my baby, Nick aka Nick the shitte, Giles's niece Dawn, her fren - some boring chick(forgot her name), Dawn's 'fren' William and some other new guys we met. Had live band and the music is awesome! Made some new frens like Melvin, Kenneth ehh..and this chio bu - Pamela. lol At 745pm, I started drinking Edinger with Giles. Drink and drink and feeling sleepy..lol luckily have music. But no use..cos high liao. An hour later, I'm in the toilet..good thing it's clean. Cos I slept in there for ard 25 mins. I stood up and still can go back and sleep. Too bad nvr bring hp in also. LOL my baby ended up finding me and tot I got kidnapped or fainted somewhere..*sorry lah* sleeping in the toilet! =)

But I was still sleepy..ended up drinking a little bit more.. played finger guessing and then the guys got high. All one by one...alamak! lol should see how guys get high. All kind of fuck things also scold and drink. As for me, I had the pleasure of smoking a Davidoff cigar. Good stuff hur..and Mentol lights. Sighz...dun ask why. Let's change topic..After that, we went to have teh peng and teh tarik..Then went home.

As for today, let me recall. Woke up late and met Derrick at sim lim. Finally bought my Benq Pro 1620 DVD writer. Not bad lah..hehe at least can clear up space for my computer at work and home. Then went to meet Khian Hong, Henry and Henry's frens at SuperCue. After they left, played pool with Wayne. Took cab back to serangoon gardens and had prata. Shiok...thosai and egg plaster. After that, walked back home and sent Wayne to the bus stop.

NExt stop.....TMRW JB! muahahahha....foood fest!